12-13-2020, 05:03 PM
Stage 4 Day 32 (0)
I thought that at least at the end of the stage I'd post an update, in case anyone was worried that daily spammer went quiet. If anyone's asking I'm fine.
This whole month I was feeling sick on and off. Right now I feel almost fine but not enough to push myself to my limits. I want to though, which is frustrating. Lack of exercises and walks meant my metabolism slowed down significantly and I've gained some weight again. Thankfully other than that I've been even if spread out.
Overall this stage had been very good. My Autumn depression was practically over and I'm looking forward for days to become longer again. Frankly I'm overjoyed when I think that in not that long time Spring will come. While I've almost sleepwalked through Autumn, Winter and Spring promise much, much better.
My bigger problem right now is general dissatisfaction. The more time passes the more I'm self-assured that I'll be quitting my job in Summer, but until that point I feel directionless. Between COVID fiasco and the thought that I must finish all old projects but I there is no point in starting new ones... Like I said I feel like I was sleepwalking this whole Autumn and the reason was that I was in this strange transition period. And I'm still gonna be in it for the next 6-9 months mind you. Now however I've grown to accept this and my resolve is stronger.
I wonder what stage 5 will bring
I thought that at least at the end of the stage I'd post an update, in case anyone was worried that daily spammer went quiet. If anyone's asking I'm fine.
This whole month I was feeling sick on and off. Right now I feel almost fine but not enough to push myself to my limits. I want to though, which is frustrating. Lack of exercises and walks meant my metabolism slowed down significantly and I've gained some weight again. Thankfully other than that I've been even if spread out.
Overall this stage had been very good. My Autumn depression was practically over and I'm looking forward for days to become longer again. Frankly I'm overjoyed when I think that in not that long time Spring will come. While I've almost sleepwalked through Autumn, Winter and Spring promise much, much better.
My bigger problem right now is general dissatisfaction. The more time passes the more I'm self-assured that I'll be quitting my job in Summer, but until that point I feel directionless. Between COVID fiasco and the thought that I must finish all old projects but I there is no point in starting new ones... Like I said I feel like I was sleepwalking this whole Autumn and the reason was that I was in this strange transition period. And I'm still gonna be in it for the next 6-9 months mind you. Now however I've grown to accept this and my resolve is stronger.
I wonder what stage 5 will bring
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
