12-01-2020, 03:15 PM
Stage 4, Day22
One area LTU6 deserves praise is in the stress reduction department. Job stress used to consume me. Now, I'd say I'm probably 85-90% stress free. I've been so busy looking for evidence that LTU6 was moving me forward that I've mostly glossed over the fact that it has done an excellent job at breaking this chain. It's possible that this is why my libido has been raging lately. I suspect that my endocrine functionality is improving. In fact, my back is breaking out which in the past had been indicative of higher testosterone.
On the flip side, LTU6 is still using up a lot of mental resources. Stage 4 isn't as bad as Stage 3 in that regard, but maintaining focus is still a chore at times.
I've started writing in my offline journal again. Doing this regularly will help me to step through my thought processes without posting incoherent and often conflicting musings here. I used to do this daily, but I got to a point with LTU6 where introspection no longer came naturally. It's possible that this has been a form of resistance. It's also possible that I've just been too tired to want to have to think. Regardless, I have no doubt that my lack of offline journaling has negatively impacted my progress. Private journaling has always been a good way for me to be totally honest with myself. In doing so, the gap between my conscious and subconscious mind narrows and the words begin to flow. That's when the stuff under the hood becomes more apparent. It's time to get back into this habit.
One area LTU6 deserves praise is in the stress reduction department. Job stress used to consume me. Now, I'd say I'm probably 85-90% stress free. I've been so busy looking for evidence that LTU6 was moving me forward that I've mostly glossed over the fact that it has done an excellent job at breaking this chain. It's possible that this is why my libido has been raging lately. I suspect that my endocrine functionality is improving. In fact, my back is breaking out which in the past had been indicative of higher testosterone.
On the flip side, LTU6 is still using up a lot of mental resources. Stage 4 isn't as bad as Stage 3 in that regard, but maintaining focus is still a chore at times.
I've started writing in my offline journal again. Doing this regularly will help me to step through my thought processes without posting incoherent and often conflicting musings here. I used to do this daily, but I got to a point with LTU6 where introspection no longer came naturally. It's possible that this has been a form of resistance. It's also possible that I've just been too tired to want to have to think. Regardless, I have no doubt that my lack of offline journaling has negatively impacted my progress. Private journaling has always been a good way for me to be totally honest with myself. In doing so, the gap between my conscious and subconscious mind narrows and the words begin to flow. That's when the stuff under the hood becomes more apparent. It's time to get back into this habit.
