Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 5

[Shannon]

Shannon,I've been meaning to run this by you for months and by the time I get here,its already a past thought....that is  I have this deep fear,that if I have all the money I want, all the things to get my thing on in life,that I'll be bored  sh*tless.
Like agonizing boredum fear,  Fear of Un-bearably bored.

I Know OF was working on  that amoung other fears,and Im shure the reason its remembered to bring it up is MY use this day of USLM v4.2,helped me to remember to bring this up.... Im not expecting an instant 'cure',instant fix..... I feel like USLM v4.2 is working on this via the success,FRM 4.9 combo...love that its doing its work.

It may seem crazy to our conscious mind, but thats one of my deepest fears around having a lotta money and success. for me... however rational and irrational this may be... I believe that my subconscious, in an effort to keep me 'safe',prevents such events as being success and abundantly wealthy, from happening  is to keep me 'happy" which isnt the case at all. not at all,of course.
awareness is the first step in  remedying the problem/impedance/road blocks.

The positive is that I have been aware of this for quite some time and have worked on it and  obviously,
#2_ That I AM indeed aware of it going on
#3) And its being worked on.
Means solutions can be founds,things can be resolved over time.

Plus with USLM  synchronicitie's have started to clearly show up,today,, without conscious effort.

So what you're telling me is that you're afraid, at some level, that if you could have anything you want... anything at all... you'd want to sit around and be bored?  Well hell, you can do that now, right?  So why on earth would you choose that?

Wealth gives you options that prevent you from being bored.  Travel, for example.  Hobbies, both low and high priced.  I mean, hell, if I had wealth I would have as one of my hobbies paraplaning... and I'd be traveling all over the world, learning about different cultures and exploring different places, foods, customs... doing photography, kayaking, learning to fly planes and helicopters, metal detecting in the Australian outback looking for gold and all kinds of fun things.

That fear is completely ridiculous!  You know I'm not coming down on you for that, but think about it.  You're telling me that if you had all the money you wanted and could do anything, that you'd be bored?  You'd buy a nice vehicle, a nice house, and indulge yourself in everything you live and enjoy, but you'd be bored? Bored?!  How is that even possible?  Where did that come from?  

One of the things I have always found most amusing when I was studying how to make things happen the way I want them to is, most people who study that subject and get far enough realize that with it, they can have whatever they want.  Anything.  And in almost every case I have ever seen, they learn this and... stop.  Just walk away.  Why?  Because when they are faced with the reality, the genuine reality of "You can really have anything you want.", they can't handle it.  It scares them, and they go hide in their self made prison of limiting beliefs and perceptions.

Basically, that's what your subconscious is trying to do here.  If you don't have fears, woah, how are you going to stay safe?  How are you going to handle having REAL freedom?  Anything you want?  And think about this... the worst it could come up with as a threat is... boredom.

Which, quite frankly, is insulting your intelligence.  Your subconscious wants you to believe that you don't have the intelligence and creativity to solve something as simple as boredom.  Really?  I know you grew up in the day when as kinds we had to make due with whatever we had.  I remember that more than half the time, I had a great time playing with the empty grape juice bottles that were left over from little treats my mother would get me at gas stations.  I'd turn them into space ships or submarines and have a blast for hours.  And since you're probably older than me, you probably know that sort of thing better than I do.

Boredome.  lol  That's funny.  Boredom can be relieved by doing what you love.  You don't know what you love?  You don't think you can do what you love without getting bored of it?  Or find new things to enjoy?  I think you're still stuck in the prison of poverty mindset at some level, if that's the case.  Adventure, fun and joy is all around you.

I was kind of surprised you abandoned OF, but I see why now.