10-20-2020, 01:14 PM
Stage 3 Day 11 (3)
I'm mad at myself. The same angry/irritated streak I talk about before. Why? Because nothing came out of that walk, I woke up after like 11 hours of sleep and the entire day I felt sick. I did do some work today, I did some zoom meetings and some of my own projects but it was like 20% of what I intended to do. I feel ashamed of it and I don't even know if I should as I feel sickly and I may well be on the way to some flu or whatever. Yesterday I felt sick as well and I hoped beyond all hope today I'd be fine.
I don't know... I feel like whatever I'd choose to do is just a string of failures and excuses. And fighting it, being defiant is the only thing I can do about it.
I'm mad at myself. The same angry/irritated streak I talk about before. Why? Because nothing came out of that walk, I woke up after like 11 hours of sleep and the entire day I felt sick. I did do some work today, I did some zoom meetings and some of my own projects but it was like 20% of what I intended to do. I feel ashamed of it and I don't even know if I should as I feel sickly and I may well be on the way to some flu or whatever. Yesterday I felt sick as well and I hoped beyond all hope today I'd be fine.
I don't know... I feel like whatever I'd choose to do is just a string of failures and excuses. And fighting it, being defiant is the only thing I can do about it.
For not by numbers of men, nor by measure of body, but by valor of soul is war to be decided.
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
~Belisarius, the last Roman
Certitude is for the puzzle-box logicians and girls of white glamour [...]. I am a letter written in uncertainty.
~36 Lessons of Vivec, Sermon 4
