10-19-2020, 10:11 AM
Stage 3, Day 9
I have a ton of guilt, shame, and fear being dealt with beneath the surface. I'm even trembling a little bit. This usually happens when I'm about to overcome something big.
For years, I've buried my head in my work to the detriment of other areas of my life...areas that are of greater importance. To avoid facing my fears, I hid in my work and i managed to justify it to myself the entire time. LTU6 isn't letting me hide. It's bringing me face to face with what I've been running from.
The fear is bad enough, but I feel extremely guilty for the things I've missed out over the years due to sheer mental & emotional exhaustion. I've given so much energy to something that will never reciprocate and I've neglected things in my life that matter. As bad as this realization hurts, I know that it's the first step toward correcting course.
I have a ton of guilt, shame, and fear being dealt with beneath the surface. I'm even trembling a little bit. This usually happens when I'm about to overcome something big.
For years, I've buried my head in my work to the detriment of other areas of my life...areas that are of greater importance. To avoid facing my fears, I hid in my work and i managed to justify it to myself the entire time. LTU6 isn't letting me hide. It's bringing me face to face with what I've been running from.
The fear is bad enough, but I feel extremely guilty for the things I've missed out over the years due to sheer mental & emotional exhaustion. I've given so much energy to something that will never reciprocate and I've neglected things in my life that matter. As bad as this realization hurts, I know that it's the first step toward correcting course.
