Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 5

[DarthXedonias]

I have something strange to report. Since I have started to run OF, my desire to have sex, and therfore use DMSI, has dropped.

Perhaps Covid measures finally had their toll on my social and sex drive...

but I'm starting to wonder if part of my drive to seek sex outside my main relation wasn't in part driven by fear...

Bottom line, why craving for unreleased titles when there are excellent currently available programs out there that will keep you busy for months if you want...

OF might surprise you... I'm currently discovering unsuspected parts of myself with it...

Its funny you mention this as I have gone through the exact same thing. More than anything I just want to run DMSI before UMS just to have fun and that's it. Not because of some neediness for a relationship or sex. I find I just don't care much anymore and quite frankly I find myself blocking women if I don't feel it or they start playing games with no care in the world if I talk to them ever again now. Its like I almost dare them to start playing the usual games so i can just kick them to the curb and move on. I also find I just don't care about being in a relationship. As far as I'm concerned I'm only interested in something to have an enjoyable time as a kind of side thing. I'm primarily interested in using UMS to acquire money and power, everything else doesn't really matter to me as much. 

I do think the need for sex isn't totally biological at this current time. I feel like its even more a pressure of cultures, especially if your in a western culture. Lets face it sex sales and it seems like its used almost everywhere culturally now with this portrayal as if its this really great thing and you "need" to have it or else your missing out. Which to me kind of promotes more this attitude you see in men where they are willing to act really, really beta in order to get it to the point of putting up with any behavior from a women in order to even have the chance of "getting some". So I do think fear has a really big impact in this area.