09-25-2020, 03:55 PM
Tomorrow is Stage 5 day 32
This stage has been really smooth for me, no real dips or depressive phases that i could attribute to the stage. In was really riding out the happiness and noticeable lightness that i felt after going through stage 4. I felt like a whole new lightness that was really refreshing, in the beginning, rode the high throughout the week of my birthday with my close friends and friends that i want to be closer with. This lighter feeling became my new baseline.
This stage made me realize just how much i changed because of this sub. I met up with A, the girl i mentioned that I put on the highest of pedestals, and had a great time talking to her and getting to know her better to the extent that she is willing to share. After the dinner and I was heading back, it suddenly dawned on me that I didn't feel needy around her nor feel the impluse to make her like me. After the dinner, i didnt feel the need to constantly talk to her and jut let her be. if she wants to talk to me then so be it but im not fishing for a response anymore.
Im aiming to make myself more physically attractive while having the sub work on my personality. My rationale is that the self work im doing would reduce the sting of rejection and lowers my baseline neediness as well as possibly helping me in other aspects of my life.
Overall, im glad im still running this and didnt quit when stuff got rough. With the allure of LTUv6, and in the deepest pit of Stage 4 darkness, I was really considering it.
This stage has been really smooth for me, no real dips or depressive phases that i could attribute to the stage. In was really riding out the happiness and noticeable lightness that i felt after going through stage 4. I felt like a whole new lightness that was really refreshing, in the beginning, rode the high throughout the week of my birthday with my close friends and friends that i want to be closer with. This lighter feeling became my new baseline.
This stage made me realize just how much i changed because of this sub. I met up with A, the girl i mentioned that I put on the highest of pedestals, and had a great time talking to her and getting to know her better to the extent that she is willing to share. After the dinner and I was heading back, it suddenly dawned on me that I didn't feel needy around her nor feel the impluse to make her like me. After the dinner, i didnt feel the need to constantly talk to her and jut let her be. if she wants to talk to me then so be it but im not fishing for a response anymore.
Im aiming to make myself more physically attractive while having the sub work on my personality. My rationale is that the self work im doing would reduce the sting of rejection and lowers my baseline neediness as well as possibly helping me in other aspects of my life.
Overall, im glad im still running this and didnt quit when stuff got rough. With the allure of LTUv6, and in the deepest pit of Stage 4 darkness, I was really considering it.
Phase 1: The Foundation
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
AM6(2020)
LTU v6(2020-2021)
OF v3(2021)
Phase 2
AM6 Refresher + SM3(2021)
