09-18-2020, 03:43 PM
Stage 2, Day 9
This week's motivation was amazing. It's on the level of motivation I used to experience when I had bad anxiety. Back then, it was fear that drove me. For me, one downside of overcoming fear over the past few years is that it has largely removed my primary source of motivation. Well, it looks like Shannon has figured out how reset the motivation minus the anxiety. This week has been raw determination. I've been going to work early and staying late to whittle down the mountain of tasks I have on my plate. I'm getting there. Thankfully, the weekend has come because I'm ready to sleep in for a couple of days. The motivation is awesome, but I've put a drain on the battery and need to recharge.
Another thing I've noticed is that during downtime, I'm more relaxed and social. I mentioned belly laughter one day during Stage 1. I'm doing that regularly now. I didn't realize it until I busted out laughing about something at work. Then tracing back through the events of the week, I realized that deep laughter had been the norm for at least the past seven days or so. In fact, one night last weekend I declined the opportunity to consume a few adult beverages like I usually do. I didn't 'feel' like drinking, but I enjoyed myself every bit as much as if I had...and the belly laughter was part of that enjoyment.
One of the things I've been pondering about LTU6 is its subtlety. I often don't notice things until I'm looking back. So, sometimes I'm experiencing progress but I neglect to report it because I don't notice it at the time.
This week's motivation was amazing. It's on the level of motivation I used to experience when I had bad anxiety. Back then, it was fear that drove me. For me, one downside of overcoming fear over the past few years is that it has largely removed my primary source of motivation. Well, it looks like Shannon has figured out how reset the motivation minus the anxiety. This week has been raw determination. I've been going to work early and staying late to whittle down the mountain of tasks I have on my plate. I'm getting there. Thankfully, the weekend has come because I'm ready to sleep in for a couple of days. The motivation is awesome, but I've put a drain on the battery and need to recharge.
Another thing I've noticed is that during downtime, I'm more relaxed and social. I mentioned belly laughter one day during Stage 1. I'm doing that regularly now. I didn't realize it until I busted out laughing about something at work. Then tracing back through the events of the week, I realized that deep laughter had been the norm for at least the past seven days or so. In fact, one night last weekend I declined the opportunity to consume a few adult beverages like I usually do. I didn't 'feel' like drinking, but I enjoyed myself every bit as much as if I had...and the belly laughter was part of that enjoyment.
One of the things I've been pondering about LTU6 is its subtlety. I often don't notice things until I'm looking back. So, sometimes I'm experiencing progress but I neglect to report it because I don't notice it at the time.
