09-13-2020, 07:16 AM
Stage 2, Day 4
Tonight will be my first ASRB2 break. Stage 2 has a different "feel" to it than Stage 1. For me, Stage 1 was more nurturing and almost felt like it was embracing or cradling me. There were times that I woke up feeling like I was in a warm, soothing cocoon. That's gone. Stage 2 is pushing me. It's gentle, but it's pushing me.
Last night, I was really tired after a day of home maintenance in the heat. In spite if that, my wife and I had a fun, flirty evening that ended with some spicy fun in the bedroom. My relationship with my wife might be the most obvious area that is being "tuned up" for me. In addition to being more appreciative of my wife and more loving toward her, I'm not as tired and cranky as I've been over the course of the past year due to work stress and other issues. I'm also healing from emotional wounds inflicted by girls during my teenage years. I've come to realize that I've unwittingly projected things onto my wife that had absolutely nothing to do with her. That projection came from a total lack of insight, a total lack of maturity, and a total lack of fairness toward her. As part of this emotional healing, I've also come to realize that those who've inflicted pain upon me likely had no idea how deeply they could hurt someone. So, in addition to my love life/sex life improvements, I'm letting go of grudges that I've apparently been toting around for over 20 years. Neato!
Tonight will be my first ASRB2 break. Stage 2 has a different "feel" to it than Stage 1. For me, Stage 1 was more nurturing and almost felt like it was embracing or cradling me. There were times that I woke up feeling like I was in a warm, soothing cocoon. That's gone. Stage 2 is pushing me. It's gentle, but it's pushing me.
Last night, I was really tired after a day of home maintenance in the heat. In spite if that, my wife and I had a fun, flirty evening that ended with some spicy fun in the bedroom. My relationship with my wife might be the most obvious area that is being "tuned up" for me. In addition to being more appreciative of my wife and more loving toward her, I'm not as tired and cranky as I've been over the course of the past year due to work stress and other issues. I'm also healing from emotional wounds inflicted by girls during my teenage years. I've come to realize that I've unwittingly projected things onto my wife that had absolutely nothing to do with her. That projection came from a total lack of insight, a total lack of maturity, and a total lack of fairness toward her. As part of this emotional healing, I've also come to realize that those who've inflicted pain upon me likely had no idea how deeply they could hurt someone. So, in addition to my love life/sex life improvements, I'm letting go of grudges that I've apparently been toting around for over 20 years. Neato!
