09-10-2020, 07:00 AM
Third cycle of four days done.
I'm choosing actively to be unafraid more, consciously making small goals for facing issues I have with poise. Have had some rip roaring incidents at work with people getting angry at me whilst i've held my grouund. Similarly in my family i'm finding i'm having conflict but it's not hurting me like it used to. My boundaries are stronger. I've made it a rule to stop saying sorry unnecessarily which is surprisingly hard, but is necessary to end this focus on social acceptance.
I have a belief that I'm slow but that's just a fear which allows me to go slow so i don't have to face criticism. So I've started addressing this as well. I know there is a state in which my mental skills come to the fore - with information linkage, quick reasoning and analysis becoming very easy - so i'm consciously trying to activate it. The problem is belief and fear. This was all active when I was on MLS so i don't see any reason why i shouldn't be able to activate it without - it's my mind after all!
I'm choosing actively to be unafraid more, consciously making small goals for facing issues I have with poise. Have had some rip roaring incidents at work with people getting angry at me whilst i've held my grouund. Similarly in my family i'm finding i'm having conflict but it's not hurting me like it used to. My boundaries are stronger. I've made it a rule to stop saying sorry unnecessarily which is surprisingly hard, but is necessary to end this focus on social acceptance.
I have a belief that I'm slow but that's just a fear which allows me to go slow so i don't have to face criticism. So I've started addressing this as well. I know there is a state in which my mental skills come to the fore - with information linkage, quick reasoning and analysis becoming very easy - so i'm consciously trying to activate it. The problem is belief and fear. This was all active when I was on MLS so i don't see any reason why i shouldn't be able to activate it without - it's my mind after all!
