GF has been facing a lot of fears lately. I'm impressed. Yesterday was a hard day for her, and she was in a very foul mood because of it. It almost entirely boiled down to her inner child not being happy to be going along with LTU6, which it had no choice but to do apparently. She was in such a bad mood yesterday that I basically just disengaged for the day. Good thing I had DRS going on, because before without it, that would have flooded me with her negativity, and we would have had a major fight over it. Instead, there were times I had to stop what I was doing and wait for her to stop yelling because something was making her angry or frustrated in some other part of the house, but that was only a minor annoyance.
For about three weeks now she's been asking me to show her how to drive my car. She has a small compact car that has reached EOL and it's not worth the cost to fix anymore. So before OF/LTU6, she was just wanting me to drive her around because she was afraid of driving my car (an SUV) because it's taller and has newer, better brakes and it's longer and unfamiliar, but really what scares her is... her dear father put the fear of fears in her concerning crashing an expensive car that isn't hers. She can drive just fine; I taught her myself, and she has had no trouble driving since she got her license. It's just that her father scared the hell out of her about this one point.
Her father put so much fear in this girl it's just crazy, and he has absolutely no clue that he did it. Not just doesn't know it, refuses to believe it, and appears to be incapable of understanding that. I have been working ever since we met to help her un-do the damage he did.
She was also afraid that her insurance would skyrocket if she was driving my car instead of having me drive her around. But today I called my insurer. As it turns out, partly because she's older now, partly because she's female, partly because she has no tickets, infractions or accidents and partly because I have the best possible Safe Driver rating and the lowest possible rates they can give as a result, for her to ditch her previous policy and be added onto my policy dropped her monthly insurance premiums by 70%. Now she can easily afford them, and she can use the money she saves to help her save up for a new used car that will last her a while. Win.
Then I took her out to where we went for me to teach her to drive the first time, and I taught her to drive all over again. She really doesn't need to know how to drive, she needs to familiarize herself with a different car. She even commented on how similar it was to driving her car. But her inner child is still terrified of crashing an "expensive" car (from her point of view; it's only $34k) that isn't hers. I had to push her out of her comfort zone several times while I was directing her, and each time she performed well. She's not really familiar with parking a longer car just yet, but I showed her how to know she did it right and position herself properly in the parking spot, and she took right to it. All we need to do is get her to relax about crashing my car. But now she is making serious progress, where before she would have wanted to hide and try to pretend the scary thing was just going to go away if she did.
Yesterday I got almost all the way done with Stage 2, but the models went wonky. They kept stabilizing for a short time, then going unstable before I could verify stability. I am calculating ASRB, and until the models are stable, I can't know for sure it's right. So for the moment it's been a waiting game, because they're still not stable. Once they give me a stable answer, it's a matter of 4 to 6 hours tops before I have it uploaded.
Yesterday, I may have made a third breakthrough. I need stable models to verify, but if it is what I think it is - and realistically, there's no reason to think it's not - then we have a third breakthrough in almost as many weeks. I have decided that in order to track these improvements, I am going to label OF 5.75G as OF 5.75.1G (it has the first breakthrough in it, Platinum Lake); LTU6 is 5.75.2G (it has the first and second breakthroughs in it) and the next program I build will be the first to include the third breakthrough, and if it is included and it is a breakthrough, it will be 5.75.3G. Or maybe I'll call them 5.76, 5.77 and 5.78G. They'll still be priced as and categorized as 5.75G but it will help people see that they're better than "stock" 5.75G.
What I got on this while the models were stable for that few minutes looked good. I hope it is what it looked like.
So today I'm just waiting for the models to stabilize and remain stable for long enough to know they're workable. Feeling pretty good in general. Today is the first day off of Cycle 2. Tomorrow marks the end of Cycle 2 and then we go back to makin' bacon.
Oh, speaking of bacon, GF decided she wants to lose weight, so instead of her previous complain and it's hopeless and give up (which would have been what she did when I met her), she started complaining, and then instead started finding and implementing solutions. She's been changing how she eats and eating less per meal, eating only during the day and no snacks, and no longer eating after dinner (which we have a 6 PM). With absolutely no input from me. I am impressed.
I find that I am doing the same, and the nice thing is, it's small steps that are easy to implement, and it's shaved about 20% off the bill whenever we go eat. Effectively, every 5th time we go eat now, it's free. One of the things I have changed is, I have stopped ordering bacon. I am also drinking water more often now, which feels good because it feels like the detox module wants more water to help flush me out and keep my insides "clean".
Even better, I have been managing my money much better, too. I'm focused back on killing my debts, saving and investing. Mostly killing debts and investing since saving won't make much difference if we have inflation on the dollar. May have to look into buying some other currency.
Anyway, we are making progress and I'm pleased with it. Not always obvious and not always as fast as I want, but progress and in directions we were not making progress before in some cases.
For about three weeks now she's been asking me to show her how to drive my car. She has a small compact car that has reached EOL and it's not worth the cost to fix anymore. So before OF/LTU6, she was just wanting me to drive her around because she was afraid of driving my car (an SUV) because it's taller and has newer, better brakes and it's longer and unfamiliar, but really what scares her is... her dear father put the fear of fears in her concerning crashing an expensive car that isn't hers. She can drive just fine; I taught her myself, and she has had no trouble driving since she got her license. It's just that her father scared the hell out of her about this one point.
Her father put so much fear in this girl it's just crazy, and he has absolutely no clue that he did it. Not just doesn't know it, refuses to believe it, and appears to be incapable of understanding that. I have been working ever since we met to help her un-do the damage he did.
She was also afraid that her insurance would skyrocket if she was driving my car instead of having me drive her around. But today I called my insurer. As it turns out, partly because she's older now, partly because she's female, partly because she has no tickets, infractions or accidents and partly because I have the best possible Safe Driver rating and the lowest possible rates they can give as a result, for her to ditch her previous policy and be added onto my policy dropped her monthly insurance premiums by 70%. Now she can easily afford them, and she can use the money she saves to help her save up for a new used car that will last her a while. Win.
Then I took her out to where we went for me to teach her to drive the first time, and I taught her to drive all over again. She really doesn't need to know how to drive, she needs to familiarize herself with a different car. She even commented on how similar it was to driving her car. But her inner child is still terrified of crashing an "expensive" car (from her point of view; it's only $34k) that isn't hers. I had to push her out of her comfort zone several times while I was directing her, and each time she performed well. She's not really familiar with parking a longer car just yet, but I showed her how to know she did it right and position herself properly in the parking spot, and she took right to it. All we need to do is get her to relax about crashing my car. But now she is making serious progress, where before she would have wanted to hide and try to pretend the scary thing was just going to go away if she did.
Yesterday I got almost all the way done with Stage 2, but the models went wonky. They kept stabilizing for a short time, then going unstable before I could verify stability. I am calculating ASRB, and until the models are stable, I can't know for sure it's right. So for the moment it's been a waiting game, because they're still not stable. Once they give me a stable answer, it's a matter of 4 to 6 hours tops before I have it uploaded.
Yesterday, I may have made a third breakthrough. I need stable models to verify, but if it is what I think it is - and realistically, there's no reason to think it's not - then we have a third breakthrough in almost as many weeks. I have decided that in order to track these improvements, I am going to label OF 5.75G as OF 5.75.1G (it has the first breakthrough in it, Platinum Lake); LTU6 is 5.75.2G (it has the first and second breakthroughs in it) and the next program I build will be the first to include the third breakthrough, and if it is included and it is a breakthrough, it will be 5.75.3G. Or maybe I'll call them 5.76, 5.77 and 5.78G. They'll still be priced as and categorized as 5.75G but it will help people see that they're better than "stock" 5.75G.
What I got on this while the models were stable for that few minutes looked good. I hope it is what it looked like.
So today I'm just waiting for the models to stabilize and remain stable for long enough to know they're workable. Feeling pretty good in general. Today is the first day off of Cycle 2. Tomorrow marks the end of Cycle 2 and then we go back to makin' bacon.
Oh, speaking of bacon, GF decided she wants to lose weight, so instead of her previous complain and it's hopeless and give up (which would have been what she did when I met her), she started complaining, and then instead started finding and implementing solutions. She's been changing how she eats and eating less per meal, eating only during the day and no snacks, and no longer eating after dinner (which we have a 6 PM). With absolutely no input from me. I am impressed.
I find that I am doing the same, and the nice thing is, it's small steps that are easy to implement, and it's shaved about 20% off the bill whenever we go eat. Effectively, every 5th time we go eat now, it's free. One of the things I have changed is, I have stopped ordering bacon. I am also drinking water more often now, which feels good because it feels like the detox module wants more water to help flush me out and keep my insides "clean".
Even better, I have been managing my money much better, too. I'm focused back on killing my debts, saving and investing. Mostly killing debts and investing since saving won't make much difference if we have inflation on the dollar. May have to look into buying some other currency.
Anyway, we are making progress and I'm pleased with it. Not always obvious and not always as fast as I want, but progress and in directions we were not making progress before in some cases.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
