09-02-2020, 09:10 AM
(06-21-2020, 04:34 AM)Fluffy Wrote: I do feel weird that I have these issues, that I am 32 years old and I feel these things very strongly, but I don't know where they come from or why I feel them 100% and/or why they come up now. All I do know is that I have had negative experiences in the past (at different ages) with certain types of women (promiscuous ones) and I have had positive experiences with un-promiscuous ones. I am fortunate that after the later negative experiences, I met decent women and had a few LTR with them good women and I think I now associate certain qualities with certain types of women. But on some level even if I can't see if fully right now, I can get that it is not so black and white like my fear wants me to believe and ultimately feel.
Hey man I'm 32 as well and I can partly relate to some of your experiences in my previous relationship. I'm probably even worse. I gave her pretty much everything and I was so insecure. Back then I was in the peak of myself physically. Great body, looks and what not but deep inside I lack confidence and am so scared of losing here. She ended up cheating on me. Good thing I had the guts back then to dump her ass. Nowadays I look worse due to being sick for almost a year now but her being out of my life is one of the best things that has happened to me. Deep inside there is still some anger and resentment towards her but that's what I am working on with my EPHRA (E1 5g) sub. From what I have read OF 5.75g does some awesome shit and you're in good hands. I myself just living life each every single day. Negative shit hits my head as well probably hourly but f--- that. One thing I learned about being sick is that my life can end tomorrow so no more time thinking about negative thoughts and just live in the moment. Looking forward to your updates since I might try OF 5.75g as well in the future. Maybe it will help me get my ass to conquer my fear of heights and I'll visit Mount Everest soon. But first off I've got to heal and live in the present from now on. I wish all the best to you my man.
