09-02-2020, 02:12 AM
(This post was last modified: 09-02-2020, 06:07 AM by Darwin.
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Some massive poops going on. I'm talking foul reeking monsters.
Still having an issue with procrastination. One thing i'm realising though is that i'm finding my own solutions. This is really interesting, similar to how I felt on SE, i'm looking at how i can sustainably overcome procrastination rather than beat myself up.
I have some religious issues which stem from a deep seated fear of a 'supreme being; - i didn't know this was such an issue but looking back, this was something which impacted me and my behaviour from early childhood after other 'religious' kids poked fun at me saying i was going to hell because I was a 'non-believer'. This sat with me forever, and i didn't realise how much it was in my identity. This fear has become more conscious but so has the thought that , 'i would rather love and explore than fear, and surely if there is such a supreme being that would be preferable'. This was an automatic and very convincing pivot and testament to the cleverness of this new fear removal tech moulding and adapting to allow me to permit the removal of fear in an acceptable way.
Still having an issue with procrastination. One thing i'm realising though is that i'm finding my own solutions. This is really interesting, similar to how I felt on SE, i'm looking at how i can sustainably overcome procrastination rather than beat myself up.
I have some religious issues which stem from a deep seated fear of a 'supreme being; - i didn't know this was such an issue but looking back, this was something which impacted me and my behaviour from early childhood after other 'religious' kids poked fun at me saying i was going to hell because I was a 'non-believer'. This sat with me forever, and i didn't realise how much it was in my identity. This fear has become more conscious but so has the thought that , 'i would rather love and explore than fear, and surely if there is such a supreme being that would be preferable'. This was an automatic and very convincing pivot and testament to the cleverness of this new fear removal tech moulding and adapting to allow me to permit the removal of fear in an acceptable way.
