08-15-2020, 12:52 AM
(08-13-2020, 10:29 PM)space Wrote: Before I started playing TID kicked in last night with feeling happy, relaxed and at peace. After a night full of really bizarre dreams, woke up feeling safe.
Safe! I didn't realise I felt so constantly in danger / attacked. I also feel really tired. I'm going to sleep some more because right now i'm forgetting stuff and stumbling. I was afraid of the tiredness of a new sub due to the work pressure i'm under but i'm not phased right now, I really feel like it's ok..
First thing I notice is I'm having great conversations with people, I had genuine heart felt conversations with four taxi drivers, two of whom turned out to be neighbours - this comes after months of being somewhat withdrawn and feeling conscious about communication. I also feel immensely relaxed amid a huge work storm which is going on. And I feel safe - I'll reiterate that point because it's really quite something. It's almost upsetting to think how normally I'm so afraid of being criticised or attacked or back bitten but I've been able to put that down this last day or so and it's a real weight off my chest.
