08-12-2020, 06:20 AM
Stage 1, Cycle 1, Night 2
US FLAC, SHA-256 Sum Verified, Galaxy S9 Stereo Speakers, 13/15 Volume
I started my loops last night a few hours before bed, hoping I'd get a few hours of sleep after the playlist ended. After all, total listening time is 8 hours and 24 minutes, so that's pretty much an entire night's sleep for me.
Unfortunately, I woke up around 4:30 AM, and a thought-train of fearful and irritating thoughts, including people who've wronged me in the past, invaded my conscious mind. After that, I got a knot of anxiety in my solar plexus, and that was that. So, I used the bathroom, got some water, and turned on a show. I think I got back to sleep somewhere around 6:30 AM, and maybe got another 45 minutes of sleep.
I know I fell asleep, because I had a few dreams I remembered after waking up. In one dream, one of the people who I'm still irritated with when I think about him was in it. He's a former wealthy client of mine who basically up and disappeared on me, when I thought we were close friends. In the dream, I was treating his pain, almost like a masseuse...but instead, it was energy work. I had him lie down on a bed, and he was in his skivvies, lol. He couldn't get comfortable, and wouldn't lay on his back, as I instructed him. He said his back hurt, and couldn't lie still. Next thing I know, someone (couldn't see this person) was after him, and he was running for his life. He was eventually cornered and cowering in a bathroom. When I looked at him, he looked exactly like my client, but I instead identified him as a look-alike actor. End of dream. Huh.
The other dream I remember I was (once again) in Hawaii. I was with my family, and remember it was my last day. That made me want to cry, because it was so beautiful, and I knew that when I left, it'd be a long time before I got to come back. So I didn't want to leave. Next thing I know, I'm on the beach, and my wife has our daughter - but not the daughter I currently have in waking life. Instead, it's another little blonde girl, no more than a year old. I remember feeling my heart swell with pure joy as she beamed at me and held out her arms to me to be picked up. Next thing I know, I'm back on a cruise ship for a two-day ride back to wherever, and the consolation I felt was "at least I get a few days to be around my sister-in-law." Lol, so that's still a thing. Ah, geez.
Other LTU mentionables:
US FLAC, SHA-256 Sum Verified, Galaxy S9 Stereo Speakers, 13/15 Volume
I started my loops last night a few hours before bed, hoping I'd get a few hours of sleep after the playlist ended. After all, total listening time is 8 hours and 24 minutes, so that's pretty much an entire night's sleep for me.
Unfortunately, I woke up around 4:30 AM, and a thought-train of fearful and irritating thoughts, including people who've wronged me in the past, invaded my conscious mind. After that, I got a knot of anxiety in my solar plexus, and that was that. So, I used the bathroom, got some water, and turned on a show. I think I got back to sleep somewhere around 6:30 AM, and maybe got another 45 minutes of sleep.
I know I fell asleep, because I had a few dreams I remembered after waking up. In one dream, one of the people who I'm still irritated with when I think about him was in it. He's a former wealthy client of mine who basically up and disappeared on me, when I thought we were close friends. In the dream, I was treating his pain, almost like a masseuse...but instead, it was energy work. I had him lie down on a bed, and he was in his skivvies, lol. He couldn't get comfortable, and wouldn't lay on his back, as I instructed him. He said his back hurt, and couldn't lie still. Next thing I know, someone (couldn't see this person) was after him, and he was running for his life. He was eventually cornered and cowering in a bathroom. When I looked at him, he looked exactly like my client, but I instead identified him as a look-alike actor. End of dream. Huh.
The other dream I remember I was (once again) in Hawaii. I was with my family, and remember it was my last day. That made me want to cry, because it was so beautiful, and I knew that when I left, it'd be a long time before I got to come back. So I didn't want to leave. Next thing I know, I'm on the beach, and my wife has our daughter - but not the daughter I currently have in waking life. Instead, it's another little blonde girl, no more than a year old. I remember feeling my heart swell with pure joy as she beamed at me and held out her arms to me to be picked up. Next thing I know, I'm back on a cruise ship for a two-day ride back to wherever, and the consolation I felt was "at least I get a few days to be around my sister-in-law." Lol, so that's still a thing. Ah, geez.
Other LTU mentionables:
- Elbow pain from an old injury I had surgery on about 6 years ago had started coming back something fierce about a month ago. It's suddenly diminished to almost nothing.
- Still having to chew a half bottle of tums every night for my heartburn issues, but last night seemed better.
- Took my car in for some recalls and a repair this morning, and I was told I was going to be charged for something I didn't think I should have to pay for. Normally I would have lost my temper. I kept my cool, and squashed the anger that started to well up when I was told.
- Have had some overwhelming emotion swell up when I think about my children sentimentally, and about how fast they're growing up.
- Having some detox symptoms. More whiteheads on my arms, smelly pee, and gas that'd knock over a horse. If I don't wear deodorant (even after a shower), it becomes apparent very quickly.
- Even if USLM isn't in Stage 1, I've set a conscious goal, just in case.
