Alpha Male 6.0 Stage 3 Day 29
1. Had a health scare that made me break down and seriously contemplated seeking mental health. In the past I immediately stop seeking it after I return to baseline probably out of fear. So being able to tackle it with a professional might be able to help me do a bit of healing in addition to AM
2. I have phases where I ’m seriously felt like I had no motivation whatsoever. It’s seriously hampering with my days and I’m confusing it with having depression almost. I would just stay in bed all day and can barely muster up the energy to do anything.
3. I decided to pursue photography for a career and I can’t shake this absolute fear as I’m watching a business of photography course. Like I could feel lit bubbling up and I can’t figure out why.
Alpha Male 6 Stage 3 Day 32
Had a dream where I was in this type of boarding school-like setting and I was super confident and was the life of the party in many ways. I was the type of person that would fight and defend my values and isn’t afraid to call people out on their bull shit.
So in this place, I meet a guy, don’t even know his name but he is the cocky type the type that just projects and has a massive ego. I just went off on this dude and broke him down with words to where he literally couldn’t do anything anymore. He was the type of guy that ran on the validation of others and berates others for his insecurities but wants nothing more than acceptance and validation. He hungers for validation and I knew it.
He had a phone and was streaming him roasting a victim and I went to defend this guy and attack the asshole. After some more posturing, the people around him leave and gravitates to me naturally and he storms off.
So me and my new friends are relaxing and the same guy comes back completely as a bloody beaten mess. He clearly was devastated by what I said. I think he went off and got into a fight with someone and lost. He clintched me and was trying to tell me that he was trying to do this knee kick to this guy. For some reason I felt really compelled to help this guy so I went with it and help him process everything.
Alpha Male Stage 4 Day 6
I'm more sexually overt now with the way i talk to people. it feels like something from the SM lead-in. Im also progressing with professional mental health. I kept reaching out to professionals in the morning and as i was relaxing in the evening, I realized im going to be opening up to strangers but i definitely need it for healing and it might even potentially help me progress through AM 6.0 too
I realized that I somewhat manifested a close friend that is helping through all this. He is someone I met before the program but after quarentine I had this hunch to start talking to him around stage 2-3 and our relationship grew quickly. he is a positive guy and pretty zen about a lot of things. "it is what it is" even though its on darker stuff that still linger within me.
1. Had a health scare that made me break down and seriously contemplated seeking mental health. In the past I immediately stop seeking it after I return to baseline probably out of fear. So being able to tackle it with a professional might be able to help me do a bit of healing in addition to AM
2. I have phases where I ’m seriously felt like I had no motivation whatsoever. It’s seriously hampering with my days and I’m confusing it with having depression almost. I would just stay in bed all day and can barely muster up the energy to do anything.
3. I decided to pursue photography for a career and I can’t shake this absolute fear as I’m watching a business of photography course. Like I could feel lit bubbling up and I can’t figure out why.
Alpha Male 6 Stage 3 Day 32
Had a dream where I was in this type of boarding school-like setting and I was super confident and was the life of the party in many ways. I was the type of person that would fight and defend my values and isn’t afraid to call people out on their bull shit.
So in this place, I meet a guy, don’t even know his name but he is the cocky type the type that just projects and has a massive ego. I just went off on this dude and broke him down with words to where he literally couldn’t do anything anymore. He was the type of guy that ran on the validation of others and berates others for his insecurities but wants nothing more than acceptance and validation. He hungers for validation and I knew it.
He had a phone and was streaming him roasting a victim and I went to defend this guy and attack the asshole. After some more posturing, the people around him leave and gravitates to me naturally and he storms off.
So me and my new friends are relaxing and the same guy comes back completely as a bloody beaten mess. He clearly was devastated by what I said. I think he went off and got into a fight with someone and lost. He clintched me and was trying to tell me that he was trying to do this knee kick to this guy. For some reason I felt really compelled to help this guy so I went with it and help him process everything.
Alpha Male Stage 4 Day 6
I'm more sexually overt now with the way i talk to people. it feels like something from the SM lead-in. Im also progressing with professional mental health. I kept reaching out to professionals in the morning and as i was relaxing in the evening, I realized im going to be opening up to strangers but i definitely need it for healing and it might even potentially help me progress through AM 6.0 too
I realized that I somewhat manifested a close friend that is helping through all this. He is someone I met before the program but after quarentine I had this hunch to start talking to him around stage 2-3 and our relationship grew quickly. he is a positive guy and pretty zen about a lot of things. "it is what it is" even though its on darker stuff that still linger within me.
