07-25-2020, 01:55 AM
Round 4 - 1 night off out of 3.
Yesterday eventually I decided that I need to get off the topic of houses, come away, take my mind off of it, relax and realign. I have decided I won't think about it for a few days, as it was causing me stress. So yeah gonna chill and relax and play a new game over this weekend and just forget about the outside world and come back Monday to it all refreshed.
Last night I had fear-related dreams. It involved the context of that I had killed someone and had buried them in my garden and I am paranoid about being found out. It was pretty intense. There was even a moment of thinking about even if they didn't find the body for many years, down the line, if someone else moved into my parents place there would be a higher chance someone would come across it through digging that area up and whatnot. After the dreams, the moment I opened my eyes is the moment I felt a huge relief and only then released that I had not killed/buried someone in my garden in the past. I was conscious of that point between believing that I had done that and then realising it was not true as I woke up and opened my eyes, the relief was so immense.
On my night off last night, the sleep definitely felt more fulfilling, looking forward to the next two nights of sleep!
Yesterday eventually I decided that I need to get off the topic of houses, come away, take my mind off of it, relax and realign. I have decided I won't think about it for a few days, as it was causing me stress. So yeah gonna chill and relax and play a new game over this weekend and just forget about the outside world and come back Monday to it all refreshed.
Last night I had fear-related dreams. It involved the context of that I had killed someone and had buried them in my garden and I am paranoid about being found out. It was pretty intense. There was even a moment of thinking about even if they didn't find the body for many years, down the line, if someone else moved into my parents place there would be a higher chance someone would come across it through digging that area up and whatnot. After the dreams, the moment I opened my eyes is the moment I felt a huge relief and only then released that I had not killed/buried someone in my garden in the past. I was conscious of that point between believing that I had done that and then realising it was not true as I woke up and opened my eyes, the relief was so immense.
On my night off last night, the sleep definitely felt more fulfilling, looking forward to the next two nights of sleep!
