07-11-2020, 08:05 AM
Was on the road all week for work.
on OF I'm a lot more chatty and I'm more prone to saying before I think, a trait I had as a kid.
I'm considerably funnier now and this was also a trait I had when I was younger.
Kind of tired from it but it could also be the long hours I work so not sure.
Been remembering my dreams more often. Had a tornado dream which is common for me.
I've also had a really weird one recently. I was growing mushrooms in a metallic pie tin. One half of it had what looked like green mold and the other had some mushrooms growing. I was really excited to see these mushrooms growing for some reason. Not sure as to what that means and I've never had mushrooms show up in my dreams before so I don't know the symbolism behind mushrooms.
Getting more fed up with my job. As OF goes on I see the fear in others for what it is, and I've noticed it before but it's really driving home that I work with small, petty, and fear-driven men. I am starting to see their actions for what they are and so many of them wear a mask and base their actions off of fear and then attempt to leverage fear as a tool for manipulation on others all while thinking that they are masculine "alpha" men and it's laughable. I have a target date of the end of August as to when I'm quitting.
It was a good week nonetheless
on OF I'm a lot more chatty and I'm more prone to saying before I think, a trait I had as a kid.
I'm considerably funnier now and this was also a trait I had when I was younger.
Kind of tired from it but it could also be the long hours I work so not sure.
Been remembering my dreams more often. Had a tornado dream which is common for me.
I've also had a really weird one recently. I was growing mushrooms in a metallic pie tin. One half of it had what looked like green mold and the other had some mushrooms growing. I was really excited to see these mushrooms growing for some reason. Not sure as to what that means and I've never had mushrooms show up in my dreams before so I don't know the symbolism behind mushrooms.
Getting more fed up with my job. As OF goes on I see the fear in others for what it is, and I've noticed it before but it's really driving home that I work with small, petty, and fear-driven men. I am starting to see their actions for what they are and so many of them wear a mask and base their actions off of fear and then attempt to leverage fear as a tool for manipulation on others all while thinking that they are masculine "alpha" men and it's laughable. I have a target date of the end of August as to when I'm quitting.
It was a good week nonetheless
