06-24-2020, 03:41 PM
(06-24-2020, 01:07 PM)London1 Wrote:(06-24-2020, 11:38 AM)Chris P. Bacon Wrote: I feel extremely liberated, however, it will take more wisdom than I think I've ever needed to live without fear.
Can you elaborate on this?
What wisdom does it need?
Once fear is removed from your life, who are you? Once you discard that long used crutch that was used to modify your behavior or was a source of rebellion or hate for you how do you act? Once all those fears that you used to adjust your behavior are gone now you see how far along your growth actually is.
Do you care for others or are you childishly selfish? Did you try to do what's best for yourself because of the fear of the consequences or did you actually want the best for yourself?
Once the mask of fear is removed you start to see yourself for who you really are and that level of self-honesty is rare, and honestly, it is a brutal revelation in some aspects. I'm seeing myself, like, REALLY seeing myself now and parts of me are not where I would like them to be. However, now that I am not kidding myself I can begin to grow where I want to and set personal development goals. I've been in a self-imposed holding pattern for a while now in a lot of areas, but I'm ready to grow again.
Lots more drive and energy as of this morning. Must have cleared something big. As stated above, I'm setting some goals for personal character development and things I want to see in me.
Also, It's quite possible that I'm going to move where I live in the not too distant future. It wasn't on my radar, but I'm feeling small internal whispers on it.