06-07-2020, 05:36 AM
Stage 1, day 29:
The other day I attempted to organize a trade with a member from another forum I’ve been apart of for a couple months. He turned down my offer. Him saying no isn’t what pissed me off, it was the weak, stupid and roundabout way he went of doing it that did. I swiftly called him out on his weak behavior and advised him that if he didn’t want to trade all he had to do was be a man and give me a direct no for an answer. That had me unusually pissed for a while so I decided to take a break from work and deeply meditated. Ever since that day I’ve been delving deeper into my spiritual practices, which I had all but stopped for a while. I’m not sure why but it feels sometimes as if I’m guided toward becoming a “spiritual alpha male”. Feels like my ego has been more balanced the last couple days.
The other day I attempted to organize a trade with a member from another forum I’ve been apart of for a couple months. He turned down my offer. Him saying no isn’t what pissed me off, it was the weak, stupid and roundabout way he went of doing it that did. I swiftly called him out on his weak behavior and advised him that if he didn’t want to trade all he had to do was be a man and give me a direct no for an answer. That had me unusually pissed for a while so I decided to take a break from work and deeply meditated. Ever since that day I’ve been delving deeper into my spiritual practices, which I had all but stopped for a while. I’m not sure why but it feels sometimes as if I’m guided toward becoming a “spiritual alpha male”. Feels like my ego has been more balanced the last couple days.
