Return of an Alpha

[Zubrowka]

Stage 1, Day 26:

Since the last Update:

- Had a patient over the phone tell me I have a rough voice, I could've been a John Wayne.

- Ex wife seems to want me to show affection in subtle ways. for a while feelings returned since we've both grown as human beings but they've been eroding again. Even women I had crushes on or were talking to before AM6, I no longer think about or make any effort to speak with.

- Even though there have not been no signs of potential confrontation with my management team, I've been running scenarios in my head unconsciously, waiting for the day they say or do something stupid so I can verbally tear them apart. Their incompetence is sickening. They're ok as human beings...sort of. As "leaders" though I have no respect for them, they make it tough to even want to show them compassion.

- A sales woman just came knocking at my door. Kind of surprised anyone is even doing door-to-door sales at a time like this. Anyway, she was kind of cute but I noticed that the whole time she spoke and tried smiling at me, I stayed stone-faced with no reaction. Once her pitch was done, I politely declined her offer and wished her well. Not that a woman's looks these days has much of an effect on how I treat her because I consider way more important factors, but truthfully that's probably the coldest and non-reactive I've ever been towards a pretty girl that I didn't know.


- I'm back to taking control of conversations. I even stay silent when I'm done expressing myself just to see if others will contribute to the conversation, and I'm comfortable with the silence. If they're silent for too long or If I actually have something to do though I'll excuse myself without hesitation.

Maybe a better course of action is to give them nudges in how they can improve, even if you are open with your criticism. "verbally ripping someone apart" does seldom give you other than fear of mistakes and create enemies, while well formulated criticism done in a professional manner on a one to one basis probably will make someone respect you. Don't know what your position is, but that is a course of action that I think would benefit not only you but them more in the long run.

Right which is what my usual course of action would be. I’m however dealing with a different breed of management. 3.5 years of working here has shown me the most effective way to deal with these individuals.

Alright, well have fun ripping them a new one when you get the chance then, lol.