My EPRHA3 Journal - Realizing Inner freedom

[GreekGod22]

Week 4 Summary

Completed 1 month of E3.
Life going about its course in a peaceful way. It's been another quiet week (and month overall). 
The frequency of dreams has decreased, only dreamed twice this week.

• baseline levels of anxiety continue to fall
  
• realized my anxiety and negative thoughts were partially psysiological (hypoglicemia), and ensuring that I am well fed throught the day makes me more emotionally stable.
  
• I have gone on a date this week, I wasn't at my best, I was somewhat stifled, shy, tensed, not fully relaxed. But that's ok, I did not beat myself over it
  
• I've also talked to several other women, I realized I want to meet them, but I have a fear of being in a sexual scenario with them, like it would expose some vulnerability / insecurity of mine. And because of this, I tend to sabotage myself and  act uninterested.
  
• overall tendency this week to be assertive
  
• having an epiphany about how my depression came to be (I wasn't meeting my needs, my desires, my soul's wishes) and how damaging social isolation is, how it skews your perception of the world and shapes your beliefs and outlook on the world