Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 5

[DarthXedonias]

I think that there are multiple definitions of "ego", which leads to confusion.  There are also multiple different understandings of each definition, which further leads to confusion.  

It is my point of view that the "ego" exists as a part of our awareness which is both conscious and subconscious, operating (in simple terms) as a singular, but transcending the boundary of conscious and subconscious.  So part of it is conscious and part of it is subconscious.  It is actually significantly more complex than that, but I don't care to get too detailed because there will always be someone who disagrees and I don't care to get into that discussion.

The subconscious is not the ego, and the ego is not the subconscious.  The ego is a part of the whole, which operates within the whole such that part is and part is not "conscious".  The "conscious ego" influences the conscious primarily, and subconscious less so.  The "subconscious ego" influences the subconscious and conscious more equally.

It may be useful, if I can be descriptive enough, to imagine a graph showing the area within two axes of the graph which contains all the data points.  Similar to a scatter plot, but not showing points; instead it shows the limits of the points and the area in which they all fall, without reference to how many data points fall within any particular place within the area depicted.  

If you are still with me, there is an area from top to bottom that looks like a gradient which represents the conscious and subconscious.  The gradient crosses the chart such that above it is the definite conscious awareness and below it is the definite subconscious awareness.  The gradient represents the area where they come together and more or less coexist.  Think the "falling asleep" phase of sleeping.

Within this plot, imagine a jelly bean shape such that it extends mostly below the gradient, but some of it is above it.  Now elongate that shape and straighten it such that it is too thin and straight to be a jelly bean.  Now you have some sort of two dimensional visual representation of a very simplified representation of what I am talking about.

I don't know if this fully answers your question or not, but if not, please ask for what I did not get.

Hope things are going well for you.

I think I get the jist of it then. I would ask then can the ego become a point of resistance to the subs then? The way some people talk about it it almost like the ego has the potential to be so dogmatic about how it sees itself and "reality" that anything that contradicts that reality is highly resisted. Perhaps this is the subconscious side of the ego if that is true?

@Shannon Also I'm doing well. I'm not currently in China but the US. Was on vacation in the Philippines when the outbreak broke out so I couldn't return to China. Eventually it was too expensive to stay put in the Philippines (The school cut my paycheck by 80% last paycheck because of not being open) so I decided to return here since China is currently barring foreigners from enter. Main reason being that they got the thing under control but then when foreigners started coming back they noticed they started bringing the infection back with them. 

My results with DMSI were ok the last time I talked about them. Met that super hot chick with nice body in Malaysia. Could have really gotten with her but I noticed one glaring problem (probably something related to what you mentioned in someone else journal recently): She was absolutely boring. She was very hot and a nice person (Bought me food and stuff) but she had no personality whatsoever. Was just really quiet and didn't do much. On her days off all she did was do chores and watch Korean dramas. That's it. Wasn't big on conversation either. I guess this kind of attitude of she is hot and she doesn't have to develop any other side of herself. I do admit I messed up as well getting mad about something early on but didn't change the other facts of the matter. Think that is the best DMSI has done for me as far as manifesting such a women. Probably the hottest women I had gotten with in my life so far. Can only guess how any future version of DMSI might work.