Shannon's Journal Discussion Thread, Vol. 5

[Shannon]

OK so i'm just going to put this out there given discussions are going on around FRM and i had a huge fear wave i just had to ride.

It's weird and I don't have a better way of phrasing it. I had a really harsh argument with someone the other day and though they were in the wrong I couldn't let it go. It was bugging me because any argument I just stays with me, i'm hyper agreeable and always 'have to be right'. Digging into both of these traits I realised there was a huge fear of losing love and respect, and that losing them was losing the power to be sustained in the world.

My intuition sparked up and communicated to me that all the strategies i had employed, both in career, personal life, goals etc. were all there to enhance my power; practicing self love is the practice of being able to supply oneself with the love we want from the world giving us power over that need, similarly consciousness increases agency/choice, increases personal power and almost all fear is around the dissolution of self and the power to supply self with that it needs.

Which can be further reduced to survival/fear of death.

In so what i'm saying is, If I believe fully that I can supply all i need, if i have an ability to fully manage my emotions and the capacity to meet any challenge i have no need to fear anything, especially if this is grounded in some belief of an eternal self, or reconciliation with my own mortality.

Basically, Shannon - can you just make me enlightened. Thanks

I hope that "enlightenment" isn't what we need to solve the whole fear thing...