07-17-2012, 12:38 PM
lol cheers Ryan appreciate the help.
I feel like I would be alone in my own place. For me its ties back to an image of a dark room with no one else there but me. I've done a lot of delving into it and its a complex beast. Most of the therapists I have been to say its a very deep rooted fear of abandonment (one of the worst they have seen). No one including myself can figure out where it comes from though as I have whats considered a good family life etc and apart from being bullied at school a bit and not having many friends during most of my schooling and being a sensitive kid had no issues like abuse or divorce to deal with.
I could write a page or two about it all lol. Gratitude may also be a possibly as simple as it sounds to work through it. Ill chat more with my therapist about it and hopefully figure out exactly what the blockage is.
I feel like I would be alone in my own place. For me its ties back to an image of a dark room with no one else there but me. I've done a lot of delving into it and its a complex beast. Most of the therapists I have been to say its a very deep rooted fear of abandonment (one of the worst they have seen). No one including myself can figure out where it comes from though as I have whats considered a good family life etc and apart from being bullied at school a bit and not having many friends during most of my schooling and being a sensitive kid had no issues like abuse or divorce to deal with.
I could write a page or two about it all lol. Gratitude may also be a possibly as simple as it sounds to work through it. Ill chat more with my therapist about it and hopefully figure out exactly what the blockage is.
The only person in life that can ever hold you back is yourself. So get out of your own way and start living the life you always dreamed of
