03-14-2020, 11:25 AM
(This post was last modified: 03-14-2020, 11:27 AM by tolgaocal80.)
stage 4 day 28
I realized that since run 1, I became highly sensetive to any kind of "stimulus". Coffe, cola and any kind of drink with high sugar causes to headache, one cigarette (normal cigarette) and I am like high, a beer and I am drunk.
I remember I was drinking 3 cups of coffe a day and everything was normal, or some kind of drink with sugar.
Especially for coffee:
I am just drinking 1 coffe sometime in day and, the time I take the sip, my head starts to ache, very strong and long ache.
I am ashamed to say, one time mstrbting and the hell headache starting very hard.
I think this kind of effects are showing that my brain responses for various happiness hormones like endorhpin, serotonin, are healing and regenarating. This headache is like something that stopping me from doing this things, I am not smoking cigarettes or drinking any alcohol for 2-3 months. I just dont need them. Very good.
My perceptions of women, I think getting more warm and stabile and without anger.
I now want to talk with some of them, and I have no expectation from them.
I am starting to enjoy company of them. and they are really feeling that.
This was the most wanted thing about women for me to enjoy of them and developing some relationships with some women.
Now this is happening.(about 3 weeks)
This aura of high value non-neediness self-actualized dominant male, are really hitting, but seems not stable yet. I am in %70 of time up and %30 of time down mode.
I realized that since run 1, I became highly sensetive to any kind of "stimulus". Coffe, cola and any kind of drink with high sugar causes to headache, one cigarette (normal cigarette) and I am like high, a beer and I am drunk.
I remember I was drinking 3 cups of coffe a day and everything was normal, or some kind of drink with sugar.
Especially for coffee:
I am just drinking 1 coffe sometime in day and, the time I take the sip, my head starts to ache, very strong and long ache.
I am ashamed to say, one time mstrbting and the hell headache starting very hard.
I think this kind of effects are showing that my brain responses for various happiness hormones like endorhpin, serotonin, are healing and regenarating. This headache is like something that stopping me from doing this things, I am not smoking cigarettes or drinking any alcohol for 2-3 months. I just dont need them. Very good.
My perceptions of women, I think getting more warm and stabile and without anger.
I now want to talk with some of them, and I have no expectation from them.
I am starting to enjoy company of them. and they are really feeling that.
This was the most wanted thing about women for me to enjoy of them and developing some relationships with some women.
Now this is happening.(about 3 weeks)
This aura of high value non-neediness self-actualized dominant male, are really hitting, but seems not stable yet. I am in %70 of time up and %30 of time down mode.
AM6-1(4.19)--AM6-2(11.19)--SE-5.5G--AM6-3(9.20)--SE 5.5G(3.21)--AM6-S7(6.21)--SM3-1(7.2021)--AM6-4(1.2022)
"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker
"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker
