12-07-2019, 12:59 PM
stage 1 day 29
what I noticed is, when I played sub in night too long for example 12 hours, effects are kicking really hard on daytime.
About approach focus, last friday I saw a girl in college, and at the moment I felt a great push for approach and this was not like as before, I had feeling lustly but same time I didnt feel any quilty for that, I felt like it was totally normal and if I want to do I should approach her for just that is something I want. I didnt approach at the end, but I know this will be happen.
what I realized is that in my mind I got very shamefull, fearfull and quilty feelings about sexuality and women. I did not think AM would solve this but I guess its helping. I was really looking for this approach focus on women, meantime I am making new friends, at the college and they are both female or male, but I want approach women sexually and see I am doing this shit.
after this run I probably use OF or OGSF or E3 I dont know yet, because this transformation yes, it is happening, really I am feeling it. but it seems working slow, and sometimes I am feeling very sad for nothing. and at some stuations which they were normal to me, I feel very frigthened now, I guess, I still had very wrong or false beliefs towards women and sexuality.
what I noticed is, when I played sub in night too long for example 12 hours, effects are kicking really hard on daytime.
About approach focus, last friday I saw a girl in college, and at the moment I felt a great push for approach and this was not like as before, I had feeling lustly but same time I didnt feel any quilty for that, I felt like it was totally normal and if I want to do I should approach her for just that is something I want. I didnt approach at the end, but I know this will be happen.
what I realized is that in my mind I got very shamefull, fearfull and quilty feelings about sexuality and women. I did not think AM would solve this but I guess its helping. I was really looking for this approach focus on women, meantime I am making new friends, at the college and they are both female or male, but I want approach women sexually and see I am doing this shit.
after this run I probably use OF or OGSF or E3 I dont know yet, because this transformation yes, it is happening, really I am feeling it. but it seems working slow, and sometimes I am feeling very sad for nothing. and at some stuations which they were normal to me, I feel very frigthened now, I guess, I still had very wrong or false beliefs towards women and sexuality.
AM6-1(4.19)--AM6-2(11.19)--SE-5.5G--AM6-3(9.20)--SE 5.5G(3.21)--AM6-S7(6.21)--SM3-1(7.2021)--AM6-4(1.2022)
"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker
"To be able to shape your future, you have to be WILLING and ABLE to CHANGE YOUR PARADIGM." - Joel Barker
