11-30-2019, 05:34 PM
E3 is definitely working. I went in my emails, clicked on a software sales link, and I felt something in my gut. I knew instantly I was running from this. I backed out.
I feel pain inside, and damn, it hurts more to avoid myself.
The boy in me is scared. He's wanting to be obedient and not get in trouble, and I'm new in directing and guiding him. I'm not so sure he needs to do or be something. I love him any way he is.
I used to love my daughter like this, and I still accept her like she is, though I share my opinions when it'll help her. I've doubted myself there too, tbh. Me fearing some relational failure has isolated me a lot.
I'm seeing connections in this post. Grief is growing too, but slowly.
I feel pain inside, and damn, it hurts more to avoid myself.
The boy in me is scared. He's wanting to be obedient and not get in trouble, and I'm new in directing and guiding him. I'm not so sure he needs to do or be something. I love him any way he is.
I used to love my daughter like this, and I still accept her like she is, though I share my opinions when it'll help her. I've doubted myself there too, tbh. Me fearing some relational failure has isolated me a lot.
I'm seeing connections in this post. Grief is growing too, but slowly.
I want to be FREE!
