11-17-2019, 04:27 AM
Here's a connected note. In the last 12 hours, I began looking up AM journals, reading one for a good while. I picked up AM6 at the last sale IML had, and I've not had intention of running it anytime soon.
I'm attracted to it since it handles all of me, the social, mental, and emotional parts, all in one package. I've chosen 5.5 subs over AM6 repeatedly, but gaining confidence in one's self is quite a magnet during this very unconfident stage of rooting out emotional traumas. More specifically, I felt a part of me feel freer emotionally this morning, and that was like something said "now I'm ready for this". There's some truth in that statement, but it's also a bit of resistance playing in my head, 5.75 style. I'm not jumping, just dreaming.
I've been focusing on emotional growth and healing for years, so the thought and reality of breaking through excited me. Being able to move on to bigger life goals for myself is a real desire of mine.
In fact, I even had to check my start date with UMS this morning, as it's felt a lot longer than what I thought. I began October 2nd, so these changes have altered my sense of time.
I am dreaming though.
I'm attracted to it since it handles all of me, the social, mental, and emotional parts, all in one package. I've chosen 5.5 subs over AM6 repeatedly, but gaining confidence in one's self is quite a magnet during this very unconfident stage of rooting out emotional traumas. More specifically, I felt a part of me feel freer emotionally this morning, and that was like something said "now I'm ready for this". There's some truth in that statement, but it's also a bit of resistance playing in my head, 5.75 style. I'm not jumping, just dreaming.
I've been focusing on emotional growth and healing for years, so the thought and reality of breaking through excited me. Being able to move on to bigger life goals for myself is a real desire of mine.
In fact, I even had to check my start date with UMS this morning, as it's felt a lot longer than what I thought. I began October 2nd, so these changes have altered my sense of time.
I am dreaming though.
I want to be FREE!
