11-11-2019, 02:01 AM
I'm comparing myself against other's success, and it doesn't feel good. I'm trying to be detached from my circumstances, but it ain't working. I just went into my emails, which is a habit in the mornings, and focused on one business email. The only reason I'd do this one business is for the money, seriously. But I'm not really an advocate of vaping, and it's a wholesale business. Money is the only attraction.
The root of my discouragement is my female miner set me up from the start a year ago with a bogus support contact, him posing as a Blockchain customer support rep. And I've sent money to him throughout the year. I'd been feeling very wary since she tried to bully me out of my profits 2 weeks back, and it's been growing in me. Not a helpless panic, but rather a insistence on knowing what's really going on. I sent a support ticket to Blockchain, and I found out the email I was given is a scam email. And I've not contacted the female miner yet since I'm too lit about it. I'd attack too quickly.
I've been trading with another male miner who I've shared this whole story with. Yesterday I left a message with him that I wanted to write her, but I sought his opinion about how to contact her. He messaged me last night, but I was already in bed. I found one of UMS's goals is to detect and accept good advice for UMS and to also detect and reject bad advice, and I'm seeing and feeling a difference.
My mind has been eyeing other opportunities though, knowing whether I gain or lose in this deal, I'll still want to move forward. I'm realizing I'd lazily put all my eggs in one basket. Why? Just realized I was afraid of success. Most businesses today give some template to follow so one can succeed. With mining, I'm on the sidelines doing nothing. Even thinking about months back, jumping into an interactive business scared me away, with feelings of unworthiness deciding for me. Something's changing.
The root of my discouragement is my female miner set me up from the start a year ago with a bogus support contact, him posing as a Blockchain customer support rep. And I've sent money to him throughout the year. I'd been feeling very wary since she tried to bully me out of my profits 2 weeks back, and it's been growing in me. Not a helpless panic, but rather a insistence on knowing what's really going on. I sent a support ticket to Blockchain, and I found out the email I was given is a scam email. And I've not contacted the female miner yet since I'm too lit about it. I'd attack too quickly.
I've been trading with another male miner who I've shared this whole story with. Yesterday I left a message with him that I wanted to write her, but I sought his opinion about how to contact her. He messaged me last night, but I was already in bed. I found one of UMS's goals is to detect and accept good advice for UMS and to also detect and reject bad advice, and I'm seeing and feeling a difference.
My mind has been eyeing other opportunities though, knowing whether I gain or lose in this deal, I'll still want to move forward. I'm realizing I'd lazily put all my eggs in one basket. Why? Just realized I was afraid of success. Most businesses today give some template to follow so one can succeed. With mining, I'm on the sidelines doing nothing. Even thinking about months back, jumping into an interactive business scared me away, with feelings of unworthiness deciding for me. Something's changing.
I want to be FREE!
