I've had clear thoughts this morning, followed by fear, and when I get frustrated like that I begin asking "where did this come from?"
The fear isn't new and overpowering, it's an old predator looking for vulnerability in me. Found out about some illegit practices with my miner yesterday, and I'm desiring to get my money and get out. Not sure how or if I'll do that. Anger doesn't bring good returns.
Then upon wakening this morning, I remembered something I'd seen yesterday in an IG post.
"Slow success builds character, fast success builds ego."
I saw my ego growing when I thought I'd won the 500k. But thankfully the big guys in business are successful since they've been doing this for years, not months. There are defeat stories we might never hear about from them until years later. And this calmed me, as I don't have answers yet. I did find some sanity in this, for it made less dependent on specific results.
Going out to shop and do laundry. I feel some fear--and it's always been there. Ticks me off that I feel fear almost constantly, but it is challenging me to grow.
The fear isn't new and overpowering, it's an old predator looking for vulnerability in me. Found out about some illegit practices with my miner yesterday, and I'm desiring to get my money and get out. Not sure how or if I'll do that. Anger doesn't bring good returns.
Then upon wakening this morning, I remembered something I'd seen yesterday in an IG post.
"Slow success builds character, fast success builds ego."
I saw my ego growing when I thought I'd won the 500k. But thankfully the big guys in business are successful since they've been doing this for years, not months. There are defeat stories we might never hear about from them until years later. And this calmed me, as I don't have answers yet. I did find some sanity in this, for it made less dependent on specific results.
Going out to shop and do laundry. I feel some fear--and it's always been there. Ticks me off that I feel fear almost constantly, but it is challenging me to grow.
I want to be FREE!
