Findingme's UMS journal

[Paul1131]

Sorry you had to go through that. That tool sounds like a proper degenerate. After multiple incarcerations, these idiots tend to learn quickly how to spot guys who may have any sort of fear or anxiety regarding such stuff so as to try to exploit it later, as well as guys who are easily manipulated. Try not to panic, just watch yourself around the guy, and if you can, steer clear of him.

Now, I believe that the best way to deal with such situations, and not have to go through them in the future, is removing the embedded fear/trauma (easier said than done, I know, but that's why we're using these subs ); pricks like this don't pick on people who they can't scare into submission.

Until then, even though you may be scared and the natural reaction may be to cower defensively, should he try to pull shit like that, or any other sort, again, make him know through your body language etc. that should push come to shove, regardless of any fears you may have (I mean, it's only natural to experience some fear in the presence of a primitive aggressor), if he tries anything, you're going to do your damnedest to tear his balls off with your bare hands. These types of guys usually do not pick on people who are ready to defend themselves.

Yeah, I worked in a prison for 3 months but left since I'd admitted my fear of getting hurt to my lieutenant (I had a young toddler at home), and she told me inmates sense one's fear.  It makes them vulnerable.  And this coworker was playing on me like that.  It makes me angry knowing he was pulling my strings.  

No, it just pisses me off.  He was a meanie bully for a day, and I won't be around him if he wants to pull that shit again.

Edit: dumb forum "translators" again.  I wrote p r i c k bully without the spaces, and it replaced it with "meanie".  Just doesn't mean what I wrote.

Don’t feel bad.  Any CO who says that they didn’t feel some fear at first is a &:$$& liar or an idiot.  And I’ve seen some of the fearless young guys (and gals) learn fear the hard way.  The key isn’t showing them that you aren’t scared, they know better, it’s showing that you will do what you need to anyway.