Stage 5, day 29:
If anything, running SM3 program is showing me that sex isn't a high priority to me.
This week-end, I am totally by myself. That would be the perfect opportunity to go out and have fun but right now... I'm in the middle of an intensely passionate software programming project and I just love the 100% uninterrupted focus that I can give to the project. Last time that I got such focus was probably when I was working day and night on such projects when I was at the university.
I'll see what I'm going to do tonight. If I were reasonable, I would leave the computer a bit and go take some fresh air outside and meet new people. I'll see what happens.
Finally, the tinder lunch date girl that I was supposed to meet yesterday finally flaked. Too sick... After she announced me that she would cancel... She texted something an hour later saying that despite her illness she really wanted to see me... I guess maybe she was handing me a perch for me to say... Let's do it. I don't care if I get your cold... but this isn't what I said... I wonder if I did reply at all... I told you about what preoccupy my mind right now...
The only break that I took was to go to the crossfit gym. It wasn't the 4PM class. Since I had zero constraint, I went to the 7PM one.
Incredible men/women ratio. It was 4 women for 1 man. I was alone with 4 girls. Actually, I would say pretty much all women in the class were friendly/attracted to me. One of them had something sexual in the way she was looking at me... I had flashback on some one on one discussion that I had with her and that did arouse me realizing she was looking at me as if she wanted some from me... there was something slightly uncomfortable in the way she was looking at me... I guess that is a good sign of sexual tension...
Another one is the gf of one of the coach. She is so hot that at some point I used to be intimidated by her beauty. Yesterday, I wasn't. I couldn't say that she did give me IOI or at least I didn't see any but I suspect that she did give some because my coach did pair me with her to judge her during her workout. His bf came out of nowhere and said that he would be doing the judging. As if, he was jealous or insecure about me judging her gf workout...
If anything, running SM3 program is showing me that sex isn't a high priority to me.
This week-end, I am totally by myself. That would be the perfect opportunity to go out and have fun but right now... I'm in the middle of an intensely passionate software programming project and I just love the 100% uninterrupted focus that I can give to the project. Last time that I got such focus was probably when I was working day and night on such projects when I was at the university.
I'll see what I'm going to do tonight. If I were reasonable, I would leave the computer a bit and go take some fresh air outside and meet new people. I'll see what happens.
Finally, the tinder lunch date girl that I was supposed to meet yesterday finally flaked. Too sick... After she announced me that she would cancel... She texted something an hour later saying that despite her illness she really wanted to see me... I guess maybe she was handing me a perch for me to say... Let's do it. I don't care if I get your cold... but this isn't what I said... I wonder if I did reply at all... I told you about what preoccupy my mind right now...
The only break that I took was to go to the crossfit gym. It wasn't the 4PM class. Since I had zero constraint, I went to the 7PM one.
Incredible men/women ratio. It was 4 women for 1 man. I was alone with 4 girls. Actually, I would say pretty much all women in the class were friendly/attracted to me. One of them had something sexual in the way she was looking at me... I had flashback on some one on one discussion that I had with her and that did arouse me realizing she was looking at me as if she wanted some from me... there was something slightly uncomfortable in the way she was looking at me... I guess that is a good sign of sexual tension...
Another one is the gf of one of the coach. She is so hot that at some point I used to be intimidated by her beauty. Yesterday, I wasn't. I couldn't say that she did give me IOI or at least I didn't see any but I suspect that she did give some because my coach did pair me with her to judge her during her workout. His bf came out of nowhere and said that he would be doing the judging. As if, he was jealous or insecure about me judging her gf workout...
