10-21-2019, 07:55 AM
(10-21-2019, 06:30 AM)THolt Wrote: Will run my 6-8 loops today.
I feel kind of gloomy and down but not terrible.
I feel like I am torn between two desires: To make money and develop close friendships. I seem to think those two are mutually exclusive when they are not in actuality. I do feel like my neediness and clinginess is what is making my social issues worse. I want people to like me but in attempting to do so, I am driving people away.
I will press forward with UMS with my new goal until the social sub or USLM 4.2 comes out. I feel like my passion for making money has been reinvigorated with my new goal.
I don't see why you can't have both. I went through a period of time where there was a lot of loneliness. I don't know why I couldn't make friends at that point in time. I didn't know this at the time, but looking back, most of the women who I was around were messed up and having them in my life would have been a waste of my time. Instead, I put my energy and time into useful things and relationships. Years later, the fruition of my work is something that I am now very proud of. We live in a culture of wanting to be liked, but the fact is that not everyone is going to like you. You're better off developing strength and self esteem in that area, so that you can focus on things that really matter, because having the approval of most people doesn't matter at all. Desiring people's approval can actually turn into a stumbling block that will prevent you from succeeding.
This sub has helped me to gain the respect of people. I don't know how it's doing it, but I am carrying myself differently and people like me because of it. When I see someone making a face or doing something that gives me the impression that they don't think highly of me. I find the right words to say to them that makes them respect me, so that I leave the interaction feeling good about myself. I think that the auric shield and the frm in this sub has helped me to accomplish this.
