Day 22 (day 2 off)
I woke tired and dizzy. My ears don’t seem to be getting worse, so that’s good.
The sexuality coach is back in town for a while so I’ve been working with her. In the past when I’ve worked with her, I found that whenever I found myself feeling attraction and arousal, there was an intense grief that came up as well. Feeling into that grief, it seemed connected to the self-hatred and feeling of worthlessness that I often feel in my chest in my worst moments.
This is dealt with in DMSI’s goal #2:
But what I was starting to feel on Thursday when I worked with my coach is that maybe there’s resentment too. I’m feeling that maybe there’s a part of me that’s angry at beautiful women, angry that they’re attractive and hating myself because I’m not. I don’t have a clear answer as to if that’s real anger or resentment (or just a rational thing of something that I could be feeling), and because this is so new I haven’t yet explored it. @Shannon, is there something in DMSI to address anger/resentment? I would imagine that if you’re resentful at women for being beautiful that would get in the way of DMSI executing, but I can’t see that listed as one of DMSI’s official goals. Is that something that FRM would clear?
I woke tired and dizzy. My ears don’t seem to be getting worse, so that’s good.
The sexuality coach is back in town for a while so I’ve been working with her. In the past when I’ve worked with her, I found that whenever I found myself feeling attraction and arousal, there was an intense grief that came up as well. Feeling into that grief, it seemed connected to the self-hatred and feeling of worthlessness that I often feel in my chest in my worst moments.
This is dealt with in DMSI’s goal #2:
Quote:Goal #2: To support goal #1, we have to develop, enhance and improve your self esteem, self respect, sense of self worth, self liking, self love, self validation, self support, self confidence, self image, feelings of deservingness and overcome fear and so forth.
But what I was starting to feel on Thursday when I worked with my coach is that maybe there’s resentment too. I’m feeling that maybe there’s a part of me that’s angry at beautiful women, angry that they’re attractive and hating myself because I’m not. I don’t have a clear answer as to if that’s real anger or resentment (or just a rational thing of something that I could be feeling), and because this is so new I haven’t yet explored it. @Shannon, is there something in DMSI to address anger/resentment? I would imagine that if you’re resentful at women for being beautiful that would get in the way of DMSI executing, but I can’t see that listed as one of DMSI’s official goals. Is that something that FRM would clear?
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
