whome's DMSI 3.3.2 journal

[Shannon]

Aside from using MIR, I have found personally that a very good option for ear infections is ionic silver or colloidal silver solution.

I have found that MIR and one of those work even better in combination.

Use them topically.

Shannon, 

With regards to ionic/colloidal silver are the many claims made about it actually true- regarding what it can cure/treat and/or prevent? 

Also what is the difference between ionic and colloidal?

I can tell you that I own the ionic silver generator I linked you to, and I have personally used the colloidal silver I linked you to. Beyond that I'm allowed to tell you this:

I do not ingest ionic silver.  I did on multiple occasions safely ingest a total of about 450 mL of the colloidal silver from Purest Colloids.  I stopped buying the colloidal silver because it is expensive and I don't need to ingest it to achieve my goals, and because I have a ready and inexpensive supply of the ionic silver.  I have been to the doctor much less since I bought the ionic silver generator.  I am happy with the difference in my dogs' tooth infections since they started drinking my ionic silver instead of water.  My girlfriend has been to the doctor less since I started making ionic silver. I will not be caught dead without an ionic silver generator ever again. But I would only buy and use one of a very few such generators; the Silver Puppy is the least expensive and easiest to use of that lot.  If I had an internal infection, I would be using Purest Colloids products, not ionic silver.

You take these statements as you will.  Not every claim you will read about ionic or colloidal silver is true, there is a lot of confusion in both for and against directions.  Some people make claims that are false because they have a vested interest in selling you something, or defending their product and profits against something else (in both directions).  Some people are too excitable and may confuse placebo with real results.  Some people have billions of dollars at stake if more people knew what I know.  Which is why I'm not allowed to tell you what I might say otherwise.  But my research, experiments and experiences have convinced me that it is useful for me.

As to the difference between colloidal and ionic silver, the PurestColloids website will give you good information on that.  Bear in mind that their product is expensive and difficult to make, and ionic silver is cheap and easy.  They have a vested interest in dissuading you from using ionic silver.  They also make some fair points.  You'll have to figure that out for yourself.  You can also find good information on the SilverPuppy website about this.

Basically, a colloid and an ion differ in that an ion is simply a single atom of a single element, which has more r fewer electrons than are necessary for that atom of that element to be in its most stable form.  Ions are looking to achieve that stability, and they readily combine with substances that provide it.  For example, if you make a gallon of ionic silver (which is always clear when it is done correctly), and you add a pinch of table salt, the entire gallon will instantly turn a milky white.  That is the silver ions combining with the chlorine atoms to create silver chloride.  That is what happens to ionic silver when you ingest it, since you are full of sodium chloride (table salt).  Silver chloride may or may not be as effective for accomplishing its potential uses as the original ionic silver was, and it depends on who you believe about that.

Colloids are a suspension of small groups of atoms of a single element.  They may be charged or not, depending on how they were created.  The true colloids do not need help remaining suspended in a solution.  They are so small that Brownian motion (simple movement of the atoms surrounding them) keeps them from settling out of solution.  Some types of "colloidal silver" are sold as colloidal when in fact they are not.  They require additives to the water in the form of proteins to remain suspended.  That is because these particles are too big to be true colloids, and they would settle out otherwise.  I avoid "silver proteins" (which are usually amber or brown in color, and form bubbles that remain for a while when you shake them) like the plague.

Colloidal silver has the advantage that, if it is not created with a charge, it will be stable.  That is why I was comfortable ingesting the true colloidal silver from Purest Colloids.  

Both forms have similar qualities when in the presence of pathogens.  They achieve their results in different ways.  The rest, you are welcome to research for yourself.

[Have at ye]

Sometimes when I get a sinus infection, my right ear gets plugged up by all the yucky muck inside (it's caused by the swelling of the sinuses, I believe) and I use colloidal silver and hydrogen peroxide (not at the same time, mind you) to clean it up. It always helps with unplugging the ear canal, and feels like it helps prevent inflammation in there as well. Shouldn't hurt (word of warning: if you do decide to use hydrogen peroxide and you've got a serious inflammation there, it might be rather painful. Consult an ENT, your local pharmacy, etc., etc. ).

[whome]

Day 22 (day 2 off)

I woke tired and dizzy. My ears don’t seem to be getting worse, so that’s good.

The sexuality coach is back in town for a while so I’ve been working with her. In the past when I’ve worked with her, I found that whenever I found myself feeling attraction and arousal, there was an intense grief that came up as well. Feeling into that grief, it seemed connected to the self-hatred and feeling of worthlessness that I often feel in my chest in my worst moments.

This is dealt with in DMSI’s goal #2:

Goal #2: To support goal #1, we have to develop, enhance and improve your self esteem, self respect, sense of self worth, self liking, self love, self validation, self support, self confidence, self image, feelings of deservingness and overcome fear and so forth.

But what I was starting to feel on Thursday when I worked with my coach is that maybe there’s resentment too. I’m feeling that maybe there’s a part of me that’s angry at beautiful women, angry that they’re attractive and hating myself because I’m not. I don’t have a clear answer as to if that’s real anger or resentment (or just a rational thing of something that I could be feeling), and because this is so new I haven’t yet explored it. @Shannon, is there something in DMSI to address anger/resentment? I would imagine that if you’re resentful at women for being beautiful that would get in the way of DMSI executing, but I can’t see that listed as one of DMSI’s official goals. Is that something that FRM would clear?

[Shannon]

There is nothing that directly deals with that, but rest assured, it isn't necessary. That will get dealt with if it stands in the way of your achieving the goals of DMSI.

[whome]

There is nothing that directly deals with that, but rest assured, it isn't necessary.  That will get dealt with if it stands in the way of your achieving the goals of DMSI.

Good to know, thank you.

Day 23 (day 3 off)

Just woke up. I’m feeling the usual tired and dizzy, so alas that’s not unusual by now . The only notable bit of my dream last night is that there were two tigers and one grabbed me and pulled me in to lie down and cuddle with it. I was half enjoying it, and half trying to figure out how to safely escape. The simplest interpretation of this doesn’t escape me.

As for bloom, this is the morning of the third day and I haven’t anything to report from the previous two days. I’m primarily looking for effects of executing goal #2, the internal state one. If something from goal #1 happens, I’ll report it, but that feels so far off and implausible and not even really the reason I’m running this that it’s not foremost in my mind.

[Shannon]

The simple interpretation, given what you have said, is that your subconscious is turning things that it previously believed to be "life threatening" into things that are loving instead. The reverse of fear is love.

[Mr Confidence]

The simple interpretation, given what you have said, is that your subconscious is turning things that it previously believed to be "life threatening" into things that are loving instead.  The reverse of fear is love.

Would the reverse of fear not be courage (or trust or something in that direction)? I don't see how love is the reverse of fear.

[Shannon]

It is not possible to experience an emotion and it's inverse at the same time. Pick something you deeply fear. Then try to genuinely experience unconditional love for it. If you fail it's because you fear it. If you succeed your fear will vanish.

[whome]

Day 24 (day 4 off)

I woke up today especially tired and dizzy. I had a session with my sexuality coach last night, and it’s somewhat of an emotional hangover. We played in the realm of what it means to feel desirable, and today I’m finding myself more able to feel into my chest and arms and feel good.

[whome]

Day 25 (day 5 off)

Woke tired and dizzy.

I’ve been feeling overwhelmed today. Everything feels like too much, and I can feel my internals shut down and not let me interact with anyone. Work’s proceeding OK, but at my singing group last night I realized how much work I have to do in memorizing all the music, and I think that’s what’s taken me out.

Otherwise not much to talk about. I’m trying to decide what to do for Halloween. I never feel like going out, but Halloween is different. I go with a risqué outfit for amusement value but now even that feels like too much. Sigh.

[whome]

Day 26 (bonus day 6 off)

Woke again tired and dizzy, especially so. In my dream I was so tired that I was sleeping in it :/

A small thing that I’ll note. My computer at work was gettings quite old, so I ordered a new one. It’s a special order and I was warned that it would take about 7 weeks to get a new one. I authorized that (since I really do need it) but was surprised today that it just showed up, a few days later. I guess they had one in stock that they didn’t know about?

[whome]

Day 27 (bonus day 7 off)

Woke again super tired.

My body has, for the past few years, always felt like it runs dehydrated, and no matter how much I drink it doesn’t change, but the past few days it’s felt worse. That roughly corresponds to eating sauerkraut, which was recommended offhandedly by my acupuncturist, so I’ll stop, but I’m not sure how to fix this ongoing problem. I bought rehydrating packets, but I got straight up diarrhea using them, which is the opposite of what’s supposed to happen.

Anyway, this is the last of the bonus days off. So far there’s been no bloom that I’ve noticed in any of the four goals, so tomorrow I guess I’m back to continuous running of it.

[whome]

Day 28 (day 1 on)

Woke tired and dizzy again. Looped ultrasonic overnight, and am listening to loops at work (hybrid trickling stream).

I’ve continued to have discussions with my cuddler and coach about anger at women, particularly that they’re beautiful and that it gives them power over me. My shrink is of the “hit a pillow with a bat” type, and I might do some hitting of the pillow on that anger, but even talking about it seems to help it lessen.

[whome]

Day 29 (day 2 on)

Been listening to the sub as continuously as I can.

For the past eight or so years I’ve gone out on Halloween with a rather risqué costume, and I continued with doing so last night. I got the usual results, which is a whole bunch of people who want pictures with me, a whole bunch of people who ignore me, and that’s it. I vaguely remember that the first year I went out with it, some guy said, “You must get all the chicks with that,” which even at the time showed an ignorance of how things work.

I’m going to go out again with it, because why not. It’s one time of the year that I get attention, so I’ll take my ego boost and call it a night.