Stage 5 day 6:
I didn't have much to say relevant to the program because I have been working like a beast for the last few days. I'm starting to take over my tasks stack.
Just to say how much busy that I have been. I did skip crossfit for at least 2 days. That is one of my only social exposure. So in order for me to skip that, I need to be really busy.
Even what I am going to share is, imho, quite ordinary, but because I have been starving for social interaction, this did standout.
I went to a restaurant takeout counter. The girl taking orders was a young cute blonde with blue hair woman. Very sexy, she even had a cool tattoo on one of her arm that was making her sexier.
She was very smiling and very friendly and very talkative. The line between being nice to provide a good client experience vs because she is feeling attraction and likes me is very thin. I think that it was both because objectively, she was smiling more and talking more with me than with any other patrons...
At some point, I did look at her in the eyes and I felt a deep connection. I have referential experience telling me that in the past having this type of eye contact early on, it sometimes did lead to some intimate exchange not too long after that...
but again, I was receptive to that type of contact. I was craving it...
As I was looking at my phone while waiting for my order, I was randomly raising my head to look around... and everytime, I was finding the blonde girl was looking in my direction. When I was seeing that, I was giving her some seductive smirk before returning back to my phone.
When my order was ready, I did banter some more with her and she told me 'see you next time'. Again, I cannot put any meaning that. She could say that anyone to be courteous with clients... but again... I just heard her say that to me...
Hard to say if she was attracted or just doing her job... idk... but that has been a memorable social interaction in my otherwise solitary routine...
I didn't have much to say relevant to the program because I have been working like a beast for the last few days. I'm starting to take over my tasks stack.
Just to say how much busy that I have been. I did skip crossfit for at least 2 days. That is one of my only social exposure. So in order for me to skip that, I need to be really busy.
Even what I am going to share is, imho, quite ordinary, but because I have been starving for social interaction, this did standout.
I went to a restaurant takeout counter. The girl taking orders was a young cute blonde with blue hair woman. Very sexy, she even had a cool tattoo on one of her arm that was making her sexier.
She was very smiling and very friendly and very talkative. The line between being nice to provide a good client experience vs because she is feeling attraction and likes me is very thin. I think that it was both because objectively, she was smiling more and talking more with me than with any other patrons...
At some point, I did look at her in the eyes and I felt a deep connection. I have referential experience telling me that in the past having this type of eye contact early on, it sometimes did lead to some intimate exchange not too long after that...
but again, I was receptive to that type of contact. I was craving it...
As I was looking at my phone while waiting for my order, I was randomly raising my head to look around... and everytime, I was finding the blonde girl was looking in my direction. When I was seeing that, I was giving her some seductive smirk before returning back to my phone.
When my order was ready, I did banter some more with her and she told me 'see you next time'. Again, I cannot put any meaning that. She could say that anyone to be courteous with clients... but again... I just heard her say that to me...
Hard to say if she was attracted or just doing her job... idk... but that has been a memorable social interaction in my otherwise solitary routine...
