EP UMS JOURNAL

[Shannon]

So I've been having a rough day today, and a rough week in general. Just saw my therapist and bitched to him for like an hour about all kinds of shit that just doesn't seem to be going right lately. My attitude seems pessimistic, which means I'm still resisting the program. 

ON THE OTHER HAND... 
Dad is acting like a raging toxic angry man with a fuse so short, it's almost nonexistent. And I am unaffected or less affected than in the past by his negative energy he's throwinf out there. May this be a sign the auric shield is working? May this just be because I've matured over time? May it be both? Right now, I am uncertain, but felt it worth noting.

The closer you get to UMS dominating the resistant parts of yourself, the more you will typically find that those resistant parts of you get upset about it.  Once UMS dominates, that will stop and so will your negativity.  I knew that you were starting to be affected significantly by the fact that you started complaining and being negative.  My GF does the same thing, until the program dominates.  And when it's time for a re-up, the negative attitude and bitching and such begins, and I know it's time to run it again.

One of the good things about UMS is that as it does its thing, the resistance will fade over time because the causes for the resistance will be getting worked out.  It may take a while, but it will happen.  Just need enough exposure to dominate and then some time to process.  Once you find the program has started to dominate, you can start trying to find the right bloom time for you.

I would say that you have to be at least somewhat executing, and that sounds like NDRS is starting to kick in to me.