StridingStrider's LTU5 Journal

[StridingStrider]

Day 151

Anxiety has been high lately. So much so that I'm contemplating running the sub more intuitively then sticking to the recommended usage. I've been running an extra 3-4 loops throughout the day whenever I've been feeling anxious and that seems to have helped. But I've also developed a headache so I'll be taking tonight off. I think the 4:2 ASRB was making progress but it was too rough for me.

With the extra loops my dreams last night were more nightmarish involving xenomorphs.. which I suspect to be symbolic of women given what I know about their design. Also I'm been having dreams involving sex.

Apart from that over the past month or so I've noticed anal clenching where I didn't before and I've become obsessed with Tinder and getting likes. I guess I'm seeking validation and I've got too much time on my hands.

Also I've been focusing on developing love and gratitude thoughts & feelings which feel like spiritual progress.