08-10-2019, 08:43 AM
The night before last was my last exposure to UMS. The day before that and the day before that I was noticing that GF was responding as if she needed another exposure, and I was kind of wanting one too. The models told me that I should wait until the night before last, so I did. But this time when I pinged how things would go if I did 1 loop, they showed me abject failure in achieving my goals. Again... and again.... and again.
So after analyzing those results I realized that some part of me had adapred to be able to resist one loop, and was intent on blocking my progress. I modeled what would result if I ran 2 to 8 loops instead of 1, expecting to see that 2 or 3 loops was the best choice. 2 and 3 loops did show up as good choices, but the best achievement of the goal was indicated for 8 loops. I was having a hard time believing that, but time after time running the models, they showed 8 loops was best, 2 loops was second best and 3 loops really wasn't going to work after all.
I thought about it. 8 x 84 minutes is 11 hours, 12 minutes. That would eat my night and my breakfast and then some. Would I be able to function after having been exposed to that much? I have a lot of things to do right now!
But after considering, it seemed the best course of action. So I decided to run 8 loops that night.
Immediately I developed a headache on the left temple area and into the middle of my brain. It wasn't bad - maybe a 3 out of 10 - but it was there. I ended up having to take some ibuprofen a couple hours later because I didn't want to run a pain relief sub and potentially interfere with this. I also noted that I was generally more out of it and exhausted from the point of decision on, and I didn't have the capacity to work as much as I wanted. But I did end up running 8 loops. And as expected, I woke up half way through the 7th loop and had breakfast while listening to the 7th and 8th loops.
To my amazement, I was not exhausted yesterday until the end of the day, around 10 PM. Unfortunately I did not get as much done as I would have liked, because I kept having to take care of ridiculous errands. (Got to go return this bath faucet and exchange it for a fixture set and set up an appointment to get it installed, since I can't figure out how; and then post office, followed by have to go to a store to get something for GF's business; then I have to go interview my pet sitter applicant; and so on.)
I did get some things done yesterday though, and when I think about it, what I got done was important enough that the amount of time I got to work was more than made up for by how important the results I achieved turned out to be.
At 10, I was ready to drop. I went to bed. GF wasn't done with her business or taking a bath, so she did those things before joining me. For some reason I was able to dream, but not fall asleep fully. I kept hovering right on the edge of sleep, and I was not asleep when she joined me in bed 30 or 40 minutes later. After she joined me and the lights went out (finally) and the noise stopped (from her cleaning the tub and running a bath), I dropped off pretty quick.
One thing I noticed was a backache yesterday. It wasn't bad, but it was there enough to tell me that some sort of subconscious tension was present. I remember no dreams from last night or the night of the exposure. But yesterday I did note some unusual changes in my thought patterns. Seeking win-win options I would not have thought of before, in directions I would not have gone before.
Today I feel tired, but both today and yesterday I have felt the auric shield projecting strongly. I have not noted a lot of celebrity effect, though, with the exception of possibly yesterday during dinner. We went to Ruby Tuesday's in our local mall, partly because I was in the mood for a ribeye and partly because the energy there was what I was in the mood for and partly because I like the staff there, and partly because one of the servers who works there has a super cute booty, and I enjoy seeing her walk by.
We actually went not so I could enjoy her backside, but because I wasn't sure she still worked there. Hadn't seen her in a while. After a while I noted the following:
1. The bartender, who is also a cutie, was giving very subtle signals of interest, but trying hard to hide them because I was sitting next to GF. The more playful and silly GF got with me, the more obvious it became that the bartender was amused by this, and seemingly, wishing she could join in or have that for herself. Not sure if she's attracted to me or just wants that sort of relationship for herself or both.
2. There was a new server present who was a skinny blonde. I usually don't go for skinny or blonde, I like my women curvaceous and maximally female. Blonde isn't a hair color that "does it for me", in most cases. But this girl had a super cute booty, too. Very rare to see that much curvature on the butt of a skinny woman. I noticed, but could not seem to get a glimpse of her face. Later I discovered that she was relatively small chested and had a semi-nerdy face with glasses. Not the sort who is very beautiful in the face, but cute nerd girls with super cute booty syndrome are not going to go un-noticed by me.
3. The server I was there to see turned out to be there, and when she noticed me, she smiled and waved in a cute way. In the last few times I have been there the way she's started responding suggests that she's noticed me as someone who is attractive to her. I'm always with GF so there's not much she can do, but she was noticing me. And she's gained weight... which over time is changing the shape of her butt and making it slowly less the right shape for me, but it's still very cute. If I wasn't involved, I'd still play with her.
Overall it seemed like I was getting more attention from the BT and the girl I came to see, than I could explain. So maybe it was the celebrity effect.
I can say that I definitely feel different, but I'm not sure how to describe that. I am enjoying work more though. Today I'm putting dev on DMSI down and starting a program build. So far it's likely to be an auric shield, but may be something else. Whatever the case, it will hopefully be something that balances our income with your desires. I have a few different directions I can go, but most of the options I have would require too much development time or testing time or are not things I can reasonably build right now.
That rules out pretty much everything but the auric shields for the moment, but I am working on if I could pull off one of the other promising ideas I had.
So after analyzing those results I realized that some part of me had adapred to be able to resist one loop, and was intent on blocking my progress. I modeled what would result if I ran 2 to 8 loops instead of 1, expecting to see that 2 or 3 loops was the best choice. 2 and 3 loops did show up as good choices, but the best achievement of the goal was indicated for 8 loops. I was having a hard time believing that, but time after time running the models, they showed 8 loops was best, 2 loops was second best and 3 loops really wasn't going to work after all.
I thought about it. 8 x 84 minutes is 11 hours, 12 minutes. That would eat my night and my breakfast and then some. Would I be able to function after having been exposed to that much? I have a lot of things to do right now!
But after considering, it seemed the best course of action. So I decided to run 8 loops that night.
Immediately I developed a headache on the left temple area and into the middle of my brain. It wasn't bad - maybe a 3 out of 10 - but it was there. I ended up having to take some ibuprofen a couple hours later because I didn't want to run a pain relief sub and potentially interfere with this. I also noted that I was generally more out of it and exhausted from the point of decision on, and I didn't have the capacity to work as much as I wanted. But I did end up running 8 loops. And as expected, I woke up half way through the 7th loop and had breakfast while listening to the 7th and 8th loops.
To my amazement, I was not exhausted yesterday until the end of the day, around 10 PM. Unfortunately I did not get as much done as I would have liked, because I kept having to take care of ridiculous errands. (Got to go return this bath faucet and exchange it for a fixture set and set up an appointment to get it installed, since I can't figure out how; and then post office, followed by have to go to a store to get something for GF's business; then I have to go interview my pet sitter applicant; and so on.)
I did get some things done yesterday though, and when I think about it, what I got done was important enough that the amount of time I got to work was more than made up for by how important the results I achieved turned out to be.
At 10, I was ready to drop. I went to bed. GF wasn't done with her business or taking a bath, so she did those things before joining me. For some reason I was able to dream, but not fall asleep fully. I kept hovering right on the edge of sleep, and I was not asleep when she joined me in bed 30 or 40 minutes later. After she joined me and the lights went out (finally) and the noise stopped (from her cleaning the tub and running a bath), I dropped off pretty quick.
One thing I noticed was a backache yesterday. It wasn't bad, but it was there enough to tell me that some sort of subconscious tension was present. I remember no dreams from last night or the night of the exposure. But yesterday I did note some unusual changes in my thought patterns. Seeking win-win options I would not have thought of before, in directions I would not have gone before.
Today I feel tired, but both today and yesterday I have felt the auric shield projecting strongly. I have not noted a lot of celebrity effect, though, with the exception of possibly yesterday during dinner. We went to Ruby Tuesday's in our local mall, partly because I was in the mood for a ribeye and partly because the energy there was what I was in the mood for and partly because I like the staff there, and partly because one of the servers who works there has a super cute booty, and I enjoy seeing her walk by.
We actually went not so I could enjoy her backside, but because I wasn't sure she still worked there. Hadn't seen her in a while. After a while I noted the following:
1. The bartender, who is also a cutie, was giving very subtle signals of interest, but trying hard to hide them because I was sitting next to GF. The more playful and silly GF got with me, the more obvious it became that the bartender was amused by this, and seemingly, wishing she could join in or have that for herself. Not sure if she's attracted to me or just wants that sort of relationship for herself or both.
2. There was a new server present who was a skinny blonde. I usually don't go for skinny or blonde, I like my women curvaceous and maximally female. Blonde isn't a hair color that "does it for me", in most cases. But this girl had a super cute booty, too. Very rare to see that much curvature on the butt of a skinny woman. I noticed, but could not seem to get a glimpse of her face. Later I discovered that she was relatively small chested and had a semi-nerdy face with glasses. Not the sort who is very beautiful in the face, but cute nerd girls with super cute booty syndrome are not going to go un-noticed by me.
3. The server I was there to see turned out to be there, and when she noticed me, she smiled and waved in a cute way. In the last few times I have been there the way she's started responding suggests that she's noticed me as someone who is attractive to her. I'm always with GF so there's not much she can do, but she was noticing me. And she's gained weight... which over time is changing the shape of her butt and making it slowly less the right shape for me, but it's still very cute. If I wasn't involved, I'd still play with her.
Overall it seemed like I was getting more attention from the BT and the girl I came to see, than I could explain. So maybe it was the celebrity effect.
I can say that I definitely feel different, but I'm not sure how to describe that. I am enjoying work more though. Today I'm putting dev on DMSI down and starting a program build. So far it's likely to be an auric shield, but may be something else. Whatever the case, it will hopefully be something that balances our income with your desires. I have a few different directions I can go, but most of the options I have would require too much development time or testing time or are not things I can reasonably build right now.
That rules out pretty much everything but the auric shields for the moment, but I am working on if I could pull off one of the other promising ideas I had.
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The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
The scientist has a question to find an answer for. The pseudo-scientist has an answer to find a question for. ~ "Failure is the path of least persistence." - Chinese Fortune Cookie ~ Logic left. Emotion right. But thinking, straight ahead. ~ Sperate supra omnia in valorem. (The value of trust is above all else.) ~ Meowsomeness!
