07-27-2019, 09:24 PM
The first week I did 1x1 and 7x0. I may have had a mini-bloom during that week of rest. I picked 3/5 numbers correctly on the Fantasy 5 3 days in a row. Prior to that on USLM4 I hardly won anything at all.
The second week you changed the listening instructions so I did 3 days at 1 loop and the 4th day at 2 loops. I was really fatigued after that 4th day so I took a rest for 1 day and resumed again for 3 days at 1 loop. I am currently on the 6th day of rest after that, and I am feeling the urge to run a loop tonight and might do so.
I am feeling the detachment that others have commented on and my emotions seem more placid than normal for me. I find myself hating my job even more than before. I do not want to be there......period.
This week, I had a very interesting dream that I believe represented getting rid of false beliefs and toxic subconscious programs. I was digging a hole in the ground and I uncovered a bunch of toxic drugs and drug paraphernalia and I started tossing them out of the hole. My dad was right next to me watching but not speaking. I looked around and saw 2 people running towards me screaming and I think it was their stuff I was tossing away. They were coming after me, but I kept on tossing the stuff out.
I am not surprised that my dad was in the dream. I know he laid a lot of false beliefs and negative programming on me. He lost his father at a very young age and had to struggle for everything he had, and he was constantly talking about how hard it was to make money, save money, etc. He was a self-made man, but was never able to hang on to his successes.
To me, the people coming for me represented the parts that do not want me to change. They were very threatening, but did not stop me. I was not afraid.
It could not have been made any clearer to me. This sub is definitely working on ridding me of the garbage I hold inside that does not belong to me.
The second week you changed the listening instructions so I did 3 days at 1 loop and the 4th day at 2 loops. I was really fatigued after that 4th day so I took a rest for 1 day and resumed again for 3 days at 1 loop. I am currently on the 6th day of rest after that, and I am feeling the urge to run a loop tonight and might do so.
I am feeling the detachment that others have commented on and my emotions seem more placid than normal for me. I find myself hating my job even more than before. I do not want to be there......period.
This week, I had a very interesting dream that I believe represented getting rid of false beliefs and toxic subconscious programs. I was digging a hole in the ground and I uncovered a bunch of toxic drugs and drug paraphernalia and I started tossing them out of the hole. My dad was right next to me watching but not speaking. I looked around and saw 2 people running towards me screaming and I think it was their stuff I was tossing away. They were coming after me, but I kept on tossing the stuff out.
I am not surprised that my dad was in the dream. I know he laid a lot of false beliefs and negative programming on me. He lost his father at a very young age and had to struggle for everything he had, and he was constantly talking about how hard it was to make money, save money, etc. He was a self-made man, but was never able to hang on to his successes.
To me, the people coming for me represented the parts that do not want me to change. They were very threatening, but did not stop me. I was not afraid.
It could not have been made any clearer to me. This sub is definitely working on ridding me of the garbage I hold inside that does not belong to me.
