07-14-2019, 11:59 PM
Wondering out loud here.
I was just reading a post I made in a non-subliminal healing group a week back, and my honesty touched me while reading it. I read in my posting an unspoken "I want OUT of this!!". I had to read it again, as ........ that's not me on a regular basis. I've hid in 12 step groups for years and have known of my core issues longer.....but me seeing my clear intention.....hit me. I'm on LTU5, and have been reading UMS reactions.... I do want out. As long as I've "sought" help, I've simultaneously fought it/sabotaged it/just avoided it. That's been me the last 27 years. The ME2 is allowing change we've all truly wanted for years. Edit: it's what I've truly wanted, but have been afraid of.
So I'm wondering about it. And damn
, my arguing to stay where I'm at is faced with something I've gained recently. It's the realization of "why am I making this HARD?!"
Wondering "should I?" The simplicity of success combined with my wanting out is making a good case.
I was just reading a post I made in a non-subliminal healing group a week back, and my honesty touched me while reading it. I read in my posting an unspoken "I want OUT of this!!". I had to read it again, as ........ that's not me on a regular basis. I've hid in 12 step groups for years and have known of my core issues longer.....but me seeing my clear intention.....hit me. I'm on LTU5, and have been reading UMS reactions.... I do want out. As long as I've "sought" help, I've simultaneously fought it/sabotaged it/just avoided it. That's been me the last 27 years. The ME2 is allowing change we've all truly wanted for years. Edit: it's what I've truly wanted, but have been afraid of.
So I'm wondering about it. And damn
, my arguing to stay where I'm at is faced with something I've gained recently. It's the realization of "why am I making this HARD?!" Wondering "should I?" The simplicity of success combined with my wanting out is making a good case.
I want to be FREE!
