Reality can get bent - DMSI 3.3.1-D Adventures and Musings (USLMaxx Interlude Mode)

[Have at ye]

Good luck and I'm sure you'll shortly be emerging from this dark tunnel, keep us posted

Thanks. It's going pretty well, I think. I'm actually up and about and feeling pretty well (and having responders responding), but still getting those dark sensations on the right foot - liver - heart line. Hopefully this means it is getting worked on.

I now know why my subC kept equaling love and sex with death - due to the need and lack that is/was so deep and profound that actually receiving it from a valid source could result in a destruction of any sort of sense of subjective volition; I guess it could be resolved through objective means; still, it wouldn't be essentially true, now would it? I believe this needs to get fixed on my own power to actually work and to get me what I'm after. Otherwise, in the absence of a source, the need would keep reappearing.

Also, people with manipulative tendencies (or maybe even simply people who *want* or *need* something from you as well) can either sense this or notice it, and depending on their skill and/or power exploit it.