StridingStrider's LTU5 Journal

[StridingStrider]

Day 84

Perhaps it's too early to say, but I feel like problems are resolving themselves. That anger I had on day 82 returned on day 83 and I expressed my anger to my mom about things which were bothering me. We had a disagreement and for the rest of that day I felt a pointlessness to the work I was doing in the house and isolated myself for the rest of that day. Then today that anger dissipated and when I interacted with my mom she seemed more open to my ideas. The interaction was productive but I think I swerved too much on the antagonistic side being sarcastic rather than more constructive. Mental note.

I've been making progress house training the dogs and they seem to be responding better. Had some 'epiphanies' about how order in society is basically having hierarchies enforced by violence (if necessary) and lack of them results in chaos. I've been exposed to this viewpoint for a while but I think I'm working it through in my mind, previously it was conflicting with libertarian ideas.

It seems that a running theme so far of running LTU5 is that if I'm making progress with something then I'm happy, if not then I get angry. Currently getting the dogs house trained and behaving/living in a more orderly way would be a improvement for the house, and therefore the family as a whole.