06-11-2019, 04:11 PM
Oh!
Yes, I'm talking about 5-MeO. The reason I am looking at that particular one is because my acupuncturist has done quite a few different medicines and sees this one as having the best chance.
I'm hesitant about drugs. My existential terror has hit hard whenever I've done drugs before, so I'm not a fan. OTOH, I'm looking for something strong to stitch my psyche together. It really does feel like I have a hole in me, a hollowness of not being OK existing.
What I'm searching for help about is that feeling of pain in my chest, the hollowness, the overwhelming existential grief and terror that seems like it lives deep in me and is intertwined with my sense of self, that every so often erupts and overtakes me, and that is burning most of the time at a low level.
Dunno if you can speak to whether 5-MeO sounds right, but if you have thoughts I'd be grateful to hear them.
Yes, I'm talking about 5-MeO. The reason I am looking at that particular one is because my acupuncturist has done quite a few different medicines and sees this one as having the best chance.
I'm hesitant about drugs. My existential terror has hit hard whenever I've done drugs before, so I'm not a fan. OTOH, I'm looking for something strong to stitch my psyche together. It really does feel like I have a hole in me, a hollowness of not being OK existing.
What I'm searching for help about is that feeling of pain in my chest, the hollowness, the overwhelming existential grief and terror that seems like it lives deep in me and is intertwined with my sense of self, that every so often erupts and overtakes me, and that is burning most of the time at a low level.
Dunno if you can speak to whether 5-MeO sounds right, but if you have thoughts I'd be grateful to hear them.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
