Day 11:
I did flirt with the grocery cashier again. I start to feel that she likes me a lot like, I should pull the trigger on that girl.
I was planning to do my bike expedition during the afternoon but I got busy with work. I did it after dinner instead.
I have seen 2 attractive women that I did not open. Something that I have figured during day 12. It is that I simply find it awkward to initiate conversation with strangers on the sidewalk. It is definitely an area where I want to expand my comfort zone and I want to overcome that fear. but this is definitely not something deep rooted stopping me approaching women as I have been plenty social yesterday (day12).
I am in an open LTR but if you have read my DMSIs and AM6 journals, you know that beside the occasional fling, I am far from being a super ladies's man. Since I didn't use my theorical freedom, I was suspecting that my current partner would assume that since we have never rediscussed the matter, things would have returned to a monogamous mode. I think that this is what she would like and she was acting accordingly to make that happen without ever addressing verbally the topic. I was apprenhending her reaction when I start getting more results from SM3.
In fact, she did confess that she felt my behavior change since a week or 2 (coincide with SM3 listening start. Another proof that the program is doing something). Started to check me out. Check the time it takes to do my errands. Check when I get out of the house through our smart ring camera and so on. Therefore, I felt important to sit down and have a discussion. This resulted into a 10 minutes drama. My suspicions were right but bottomline, she understands me and she is reassured. What is important to her is:
1. Having quality non-sexual attention from me
2. Feel that her main gf spot isn't threatened and that I keep providing her needs (which man wouldn't to do that for a woman accepting her man casual polygamy needs?)
The conclusion of this discussion has been positive. I am now feeling better. I feel that being honest about my desires and intention with my gf is beneficial for my self-esteem and removes a concern that could be latent in my mind when I go out to meet women.
Day12:
My gf and I went to the naturist beach. During the day, I have been a real social butterfly. Of course, I didn't pull the trigger in the presence of my gf out of appropriateness. She is ok with the idea of me pursuing casual sex partners but probably not doing it in front of her (but I guess it is not impossible to change that a bit and might even at some point enjoy doing it with me...) but I did allow me to playfully tease 2 strippers like girls right beside us. The only issue was that there was awefully lot of mosquitos. With mosquitos repellant, you were fine but without it, it was mosquitos hell. The 2 girls were harrassed by mosquitos. I did offer them to borrow my spray. Which they did. I did tell the hot one that her tits needed some more. She did smiled at me and did spray them some more and started to rub them... I like that... It is me playing with my dominance and testing the girl submissive attitude...
I lost count to how many women (and men. I was social. Not really hitting on women) I had initiate convo but it is well over 3 and vibe was good. I didn't collect phone # or pull the trigger out of decency for my gf (but maybe this is a limiting belief that I have that could be changed... As long as everyone is fine, I guess this is doable...). One exception, is cute woman who is maintaning the beach private FB group. We connected on FB.
I did flirt with the grocery cashier again. I start to feel that she likes me a lot like, I should pull the trigger on that girl.
I was planning to do my bike expedition during the afternoon but I got busy with work. I did it after dinner instead.
I have seen 2 attractive women that I did not open. Something that I have figured during day 12. It is that I simply find it awkward to initiate conversation with strangers on the sidewalk. It is definitely an area where I want to expand my comfort zone and I want to overcome that fear. but this is definitely not something deep rooted stopping me approaching women as I have been plenty social yesterday (day12).
I am in an open LTR but if you have read my DMSIs and AM6 journals, you know that beside the occasional fling, I am far from being a super ladies's man. Since I didn't use my theorical freedom, I was suspecting that my current partner would assume that since we have never rediscussed the matter, things would have returned to a monogamous mode. I think that this is what she would like and she was acting accordingly to make that happen without ever addressing verbally the topic. I was apprenhending her reaction when I start getting more results from SM3.
In fact, she did confess that she felt my behavior change since a week or 2 (coincide with SM3 listening start. Another proof that the program is doing something). Started to check me out. Check the time it takes to do my errands. Check when I get out of the house through our smart ring camera and so on. Therefore, I felt important to sit down and have a discussion. This resulted into a 10 minutes drama. My suspicions were right but bottomline, she understands me and she is reassured. What is important to her is:
1. Having quality non-sexual attention from me
2. Feel that her main gf spot isn't threatened and that I keep providing her needs (which man wouldn't to do that for a woman accepting her man casual polygamy needs?)
The conclusion of this discussion has been positive. I am now feeling better. I feel that being honest about my desires and intention with my gf is beneficial for my self-esteem and removes a concern that could be latent in my mind when I go out to meet women.
Day12:
My gf and I went to the naturist beach. During the day, I have been a real social butterfly. Of course, I didn't pull the trigger in the presence of my gf out of appropriateness. She is ok with the idea of me pursuing casual sex partners but probably not doing it in front of her (but I guess it is not impossible to change that a bit and might even at some point enjoy doing it with me...) but I did allow me to playfully tease 2 strippers like girls right beside us. The only issue was that there was awefully lot of mosquitos. With mosquitos repellant, you were fine but without it, it was mosquitos hell. The 2 girls were harrassed by mosquitos. I did offer them to borrow my spray. Which they did. I did tell the hot one that her tits needed some more. She did smiled at me and did spray them some more and started to rub them... I like that... It is me playing with my dominance and testing the girl submissive attitude...
I lost count to how many women (and men. I was social. Not really hitting on women) I had initiate convo but it is well over 3 and vibe was good. I didn't collect phone # or pull the trigger out of decency for my gf (but maybe this is a limiting belief that I have that could be changed... As long as everyone is fine, I guess this is doable...). One exception, is cute woman who is maintaning the beach private FB group. We connected on FB.
