06-07-2019, 06:08 PM
Stage 1, Day 9:
I went to my massage parlor to get a massage. The therapist taking care of me was cute and I was feeling a good vibe between us. So during the massage, I did flirt a bit with her. She did react well to it. So at the end, I essentially told her that:
I would like to see you again to spend time with you. Is this something that you would like to do?
Her: what would we do?
Me: I feel a physical attraction that I would like to explore with you.
Her: I cannot accept because I have an husband. He is not around right now and I'm going to meet him in August in France.
Me: No problem. I won't insist then. You gave me an excellent massage nonetheless.
1. I guess that I could have offer platonic activities to which she would have agreed to but I would have probably wasted my time since that wouldn't have been my ultimate goal in spending time with her.
2. It is funny. I'm not sure why she took the effort to mention that her husband was away. Was it some sort of way to tell me, I shouldn't but if you insist that could be possible? I didn't want to do that. You are in a monogamous relation. I won't tamper with it. End of story. but I cannot help to wonder why she did that...
3. The fact that I did express my desires and that despite my offer has being declined, the whole exchange did remain courtous. I'm impressed with how much class and no crass language, I have basically offer her to have sex with me. This is a huge relief and a positive experience as it kinda is a step forward removing the irrational fear of expressing my sexual interest that has been instilled in me by social programming.
After my massage, I went to the park. I did read a little bit. I did miss few stunning girls that I didn't see coming by because I was reading but I have also did exchange few eye contacts with women passing by and even smiles... I did flirt with 2 girls when I did have the chance (one was incredibly hot). Reaction has been good. It is funny that I'm not feeling compelled to stop these women yet, and tell them that I find them cute and I want to meet them real quick but I'm feeling that this is coming really soon. When a woman that I find attractive cross my path and we exchange eye contact, I feel like the way the she look at me is basically a green light to open her. I just need to surf the wave and feel good about the whole endeavor because I'm feeling that I am on the path of becoming a sex magnet for real... So for a second day, my challenge to get 3 solid contact with women that I meet outside hasn't been succeeded but I don't care because I'm feeling the progress in my inner state and the feedback that the outside world is returning me.
Another observation. The manifestation feature of SM3 seems to kick in. Every where I go, I see women that are attractive. Once, I tweak my behavior some more, having sex will essentially become like picking up one of the many low hanging fruits that I'm going to find everywhere... very cool...
I went to my massage parlor to get a massage. The therapist taking care of me was cute and I was feeling a good vibe between us. So during the massage, I did flirt a bit with her. She did react well to it. So at the end, I essentially told her that:
I would like to see you again to spend time with you. Is this something that you would like to do?
Her: what would we do?
Me: I feel a physical attraction that I would like to explore with you.
Her: I cannot accept because I have an husband. He is not around right now and I'm going to meet him in August in France.
Me: No problem. I won't insist then. You gave me an excellent massage nonetheless.
1. I guess that I could have offer platonic activities to which she would have agreed to but I would have probably wasted my time since that wouldn't have been my ultimate goal in spending time with her.
2. It is funny. I'm not sure why she took the effort to mention that her husband was away. Was it some sort of way to tell me, I shouldn't but if you insist that could be possible? I didn't want to do that. You are in a monogamous relation. I won't tamper with it. End of story. but I cannot help to wonder why she did that...
3. The fact that I did express my desires and that despite my offer has being declined, the whole exchange did remain courtous. I'm impressed with how much class and no crass language, I have basically offer her to have sex with me. This is a huge relief and a positive experience as it kinda is a step forward removing the irrational fear of expressing my sexual interest that has been instilled in me by social programming.
After my massage, I went to the park. I did read a little bit. I did miss few stunning girls that I didn't see coming by because I was reading but I have also did exchange few eye contacts with women passing by and even smiles... I did flirt with 2 girls when I did have the chance (one was incredibly hot). Reaction has been good. It is funny that I'm not feeling compelled to stop these women yet, and tell them that I find them cute and I want to meet them real quick but I'm feeling that this is coming really soon. When a woman that I find attractive cross my path and we exchange eye contact, I feel like the way the she look at me is basically a green light to open her. I just need to surf the wave and feel good about the whole endeavor because I'm feeling that I am on the path of becoming a sex magnet for real... So for a second day, my challenge to get 3 solid contact with women that I meet outside hasn't been succeeded but I don't care because I'm feeling the progress in my inner state and the feedback that the outside world is returning me.
Another observation. The manifestation feature of SM3 seems to kick in. Every where I go, I see women that are attractive. Once, I tweak my behavior some more, having sex will essentially become like picking up one of the many low hanging fruits that I'm going to find everywhere... very cool...
