Day #8:
Today was possibly the first nice day of the spring. This was a warm sunny day. I did planned to redo my expedition trip to the park in bike. I have been too busy finally and I had to choose between going to the park or to the gym. I opted to go at the gym.
It was a good class. There was 4 women in the class and I had good exchanges with 2 of them.
In the evening, I had to go at the grocery. While I was taking a salad and trying to put it in one of these damn thin fruit plastic bags, the most amazing young woman popped out of nowhere and did just pass by me. She must have been wearing yoga pants or something incredibly molding. She was real hot. And I did look at her intensely. She did smile at me and I did smile back. maybe 30 seconds after she did pass by close to me a second time.
The good: Her smiling at me. I guess that this can be an indicator of interest.
The bad: I just did froze in place and I didn't talk to her
I have several thoughts about not having talked to her.
1. There is maybe a 3 seconds window to open the girl.
The situation cannot be analyzed consciously and decide to act consciously. The right action has to come out automatically. I expect SM3 program to assist me doing that but I will not 100% rely on subliminal magic to make that happen. I also believe in practice and repetition. Without subliminals, practicing something that I want to become an habit would be the way I would get it. So, on top of listening to SM3, I will practice relentlessly until opening attractive women enthusiastically becomes a second nature that I do automatically.
I'll do mental rehearsal and real life practice. That will achieve 2 things. a) Make opening women an automatic action and b) this will pump up my self-confidence and self-assurance muscles.
2. Now that I consciously intent to approach women to have sex, it makes approaching harder.
Usually, I'm a very outgoing very social person who is going to talk to everyone. It is natural and easy and I don't have to think about it. It just happen naturally.
Having a specific intent in mind (have sex), this is weird, this seems to give me approach anxiety. I'm not sure that I understand why exactly... I feel like I have my skin thick enough to manage rejections... I do not think that this is what I fear...
I don't know if I am going to say something crazy but I think that the idea that I could have sex with a very attractive woman very quickly from the time that I meet her isn't fully digested in my mind... Lot of casual sex with attractive women (I prefer quality vs quantity) is what I desire but this is still definitely outside my actual comfort zone.
It could be that it isn't yet integrated that being a sex magnet is now my new reality. Maybe that I'm doubting that I'm deserving it. Maybe there is a fear stopping me to seize the opportunity. Something related to my self-esteem and self-image and what my subconscious mind believe that I deserve... I don't know, it isn't clear or obvious to me what is happening...
Today was possibly the first nice day of the spring. This was a warm sunny day. I did planned to redo my expedition trip to the park in bike. I have been too busy finally and I had to choose between going to the park or to the gym. I opted to go at the gym.
It was a good class. There was 4 women in the class and I had good exchanges with 2 of them.
In the evening, I had to go at the grocery. While I was taking a salad and trying to put it in one of these damn thin fruit plastic bags, the most amazing young woman popped out of nowhere and did just pass by me. She must have been wearing yoga pants or something incredibly molding. She was real hot. And I did look at her intensely. She did smile at me and I did smile back. maybe 30 seconds after she did pass by close to me a second time.
The good: Her smiling at me. I guess that this can be an indicator of interest.
The bad: I just did froze in place and I didn't talk to her
I have several thoughts about not having talked to her.
1. There is maybe a 3 seconds window to open the girl.
The situation cannot be analyzed consciously and decide to act consciously. The right action has to come out automatically. I expect SM3 program to assist me doing that but I will not 100% rely on subliminal magic to make that happen. I also believe in practice and repetition. Without subliminals, practicing something that I want to become an habit would be the way I would get it. So, on top of listening to SM3, I will practice relentlessly until opening attractive women enthusiastically becomes a second nature that I do automatically.
I'll do mental rehearsal and real life practice. That will achieve 2 things. a) Make opening women an automatic action and b) this will pump up my self-confidence and self-assurance muscles.
2. Now that I consciously intent to approach women to have sex, it makes approaching harder.
Usually, I'm a very outgoing very social person who is going to talk to everyone. It is natural and easy and I don't have to think about it. It just happen naturally.
Having a specific intent in mind (have sex), this is weird, this seems to give me approach anxiety. I'm not sure that I understand why exactly... I feel like I have my skin thick enough to manage rejections... I do not think that this is what I fear...
I don't know if I am going to say something crazy but I think that the idea that I could have sex with a very attractive woman very quickly from the time that I meet her isn't fully digested in my mind... Lot of casual sex with attractive women (I prefer quality vs quantity) is what I desire but this is still definitely outside my actual comfort zone.
It could be that it isn't yet integrated that being a sex magnet is now my new reality. Maybe that I'm doubting that I'm deserving it. Maybe there is a fear stopping me to seize the opportunity. Something related to my self-esteem and self-image and what my subconscious mind believe that I deserve... I don't know, it isn't clear or obvious to me what is happening...
