Day 98
Day 2 on.
Dreamt last night of running away from a world-ending calamity. The usual.
This past week I've been getting super aware of how the existential grief is so deep in my core that it affects everything that I do and how I am. LTU doesn't seem to be making a difference. Nothing seems to be making a difference.
I was talking to my acupuncturist and he's done a lot of healing drugs. He feels that <redacting> is probably the right one for me, so he'll talk to his practitioner who does it, and then I will talk to him.
If I do that, I'm going to stop with LTU a few days before. I don't know if I'm going to ask for a refund, though I have 180 days to do so since I've done a three-month cycle of it. If the drug helps heal me, maybe LTU might have a chance if I try it afterwards? Shame it didn't work in my current state.
Day 2 on.
Dreamt last night of running away from a world-ending calamity. The usual.
This past week I've been getting super aware of how the existential grief is so deep in my core that it affects everything that I do and how I am. LTU doesn't seem to be making a difference. Nothing seems to be making a difference.
I was talking to my acupuncturist and he's done a lot of healing drugs. He feels that <redacting> is probably the right one for me, so he'll talk to his practitioner who does it, and then I will talk to him.
If I do that, I'm going to stop with LTU a few days before. I don't know if I'm going to ask for a refund, though I have 180 days to do so since I've done a three-month cycle of it. If the drug helps heal me, maybe LTU might have a chance if I try it afterwards? Shame it didn't work in my current state.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
