05-26-2019, 02:41 PM
Day 91
Recovering from the cold; I still have a bit of a cough but otherwise feeling ok-ish physically.
I had a session with a healer today, and I spent the whole time in a space of existential anguish. I don't like the term "existential terror", the usual term, as "terror" implies being afraid of something. It's a deep existential grief, where I can feel each moment of my life slip away. It's immeasurably sad, and for some reason I was really in my body today and felt it deeply.
That seems to be a core wound of mine, as it's the earliest thing I can remember of myself. I've written a ton about it before, so there's no point in mentioning it here. I wish the LTU were doing something noticeable here. That's the only thing that really matters and the only thing that I really care about getting handled.
Recovering from the cold; I still have a bit of a cough but otherwise feeling ok-ish physically.
I had a session with a healer today, and I spent the whole time in a space of existential anguish. I don't like the term "existential terror", the usual term, as "terror" implies being afraid of something. It's a deep existential grief, where I can feel each moment of my life slip away. It's immeasurably sad, and for some reason I was really in my body today and felt it deeply.
That seems to be a core wound of mine, as it's the earliest thing I can remember of myself. I've written a ton about it before, so there's no point in mentioning it here. I wish the LTU were doing something noticeable here. That's the only thing that really matters and the only thing that I really care about getting handled.
I share the details of my life in my posts to help in the understanding of the effects of the subliminals I use. I am only open to advice that relates to the use of the subliminals.
